Genesis 42

— When the Past Stands Before Us

Empty jars in Canaan.
Rumor of grain
coming up from the south.

This November,
aid trucks sit idle in Darfur,
no fuel in their tanks.
In Gaza, ration lists grow shorter.
Here at home, five million names
are gone from the food rolls.

“Why do you stare
at one another?
Go down,
that we may live.”

*

Ten went.
The youngest stayed,
held back by a father
who had already lost one son.

They bowed to the ground
before a stranger
in linen and gold.

He knew their faces.
They did not know his.

*

“You are spies.”

“No, my lord.
We were twelve.
One is no more.”

He heard himself spoken of
as a dead man.

So nations talk
of the ones who are no more,
counting graves
in Kyiv and Khartoum.

*

Three days in the dark,
then the old wound spoke:
“We saw his anguish.
We would not listen.”

This week a country counted ballots
and heard its own voice
come back changed.
Is it a verdict,
or the first stirring
of memory?

The buried thing
had only been waiting.

*

The governor turned aside
and wept.

In Brussels, envoys sketch
how a ruined land might be rebuilt,
while the night skies
still trade fire.

Tears behind a closed door.
Talk of rebuilding
under falling fire.

*

He bound Simeon.
He filled their sacks.
In the mouth of each,
the silver returned
like a question.

“What has God done to us?”

*

At home the old man cried,
“Joseph is gone.
Simeon is gone.
All this is against me.”

He saw only loss,
not the son he mourned
feeding the nations.

*

So it is
inside a broken world.
We see famine.
Bread is being kneaded
out of sight.

The wound is not healed,
but it is no longer hidden.

Truth opens the first door.
Mercy waits behind it,
weeping,
not yet ready
to say its name.

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Genesis 41

— When the Time Comes

The Nile at dawn.
Seven fat cows rising from the reeds,
seven lean ones after them,
and the lean ate the fat
and looked no fuller.

Seven full ears on one stalk,
seven scorched by the east wind.

A dream of a land
where plenty and hunger
live on the same riverbank.

*

This week the country woke
to both houses of Congress
in new hands.

Some sang.
Some mourned.
I sat by the window
and asked the old question:
peace for whom?
justice for whom?

*

Two years the cupbearer forgot.
Then: “I remember my faults today.”

Justice often begins
with one person remembering
a name left behind the walls.

*

Joseph, shaved and clothed,
before the throne:
“It is not in me.”

The reed is hollow
so the breath can sing.
Power is hollow too,
until it is filled
with someone else’s need.

*

Pharaoh’s ring.
Fine linen.
A gold chain.

But the true sign of his office
was the storehouse:
grain set aside in the fat years
so no child would starve
in the lean.

There is no peace
on an empty stomach.
There is no justice
that forgets the granary.

*

I preached peace
and sometimes kept silent
where justice should have spoken.

I know the Friend
does not choose between them.
They are two hands
of the same embrace,
two banks of one river.

*

Manasseh:
God has made me forget my hardship.
Ephraim:
God has made me fruitful
in the land of my affliction.

Not forgetting the wrong.
Forgetting the bitterness,
so the field can bear again.

*

Then the famine came,
over Egypt,
over all the earth.

And the doors of the storehouse opened,
not to one tribe,
not to one party,
but to every hungry hand
that came.

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Genesis 40

— The Dreams We Carry in the Dark

Two sad faces at morning
behind the same prison wall,
one who poured the king’s wine,
one who baked the king’s bread.

Palace and prison,
two worlds,
and sorrow had led them both
to one floor.

*

“Why are your faces sad today?”

Before power,
before freedom,
this was his first gift:
to see another’s sorrow.

“Do not interpretations
belong to God?
Tell me.”

*

A vine with three branches,
budding, blossoming,
grapes pressed into Pharaoh’s cup.

Three days, Joseph said,
and the cup will be in your hand again.

Then, softly, his own prayer
hidden inside the answer:
Remember me.
Do not let me disappear.

*

Three baskets on the baker’s head.
Birds eating from the top one.

Three days.
A different ending.

Joseph stood between two dreams
and told the truth
as gently as truth allows.

*

Pharaoh’s birthday.
One lifted to the table.
One lifted to the tree.

And the cupbearer
walked back into the palace
and forgot him.

*

How easily we forget
the ones who carried us
through our darkest hour.

I have been that cupbearer.
Lord, forgive the names
I left behind the walls.

*

He read the wine of another’s dream
while his own cup stood empty.
He carried hope for others
while his own hope waited.

The Lord say
the wine of the Friend
is poured first into a cup
that has learned to be empty.

*

The cupbearer forgot.
God did not.

Past the walls Joseph could not see through,
the vine was already
budding.

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Genesis 39

— The God Who Was With Him

A strange tongue in his ears,
a stranger’s house,
a slave’s sandals on his feet.

And one plain line of Scripture
falling like light through a high window:
The Lord was with Joseph.

*

Not after the chains.
Inside them.

Whatever his hands touched
began to grow.
A whole house grew quiet
around one faithful servant.

*

Then her voice, day after day:
Lie with me.

An open door.
No one watching.

But the lover knows
there is no room
where the Beloved is absent.

How could I sin against God?

*

She seized his garment.
He left it in her hand
and ran.

The dervish sheds his cloak
to keep his soul.
Sometimes faithfulness
looks like running.

*

The garment became a lie.
Truth stood outside the room
while accusation filled the house.

From slave
to prisoner.
One descent,
then another.

*

And again:
The Lord was with Joseph.
Even there.

The keeper of the prison trusted him.
In the dark,
a lamp needs no permission
to shine.

*

He lost his freedom,
not his integrity.
His garment,
not his name.
His place,
not the Presence.

The world kept taking.
God kept staying.

*

Looking back,
I see the dream was never
a promise of an easy road.
It was a promise
of the Friend
walking inside the road.

*

Down to Egypt.
Down into slavery.
Down into prison.

And under every descent,
like water under stone,
one word:
Here.

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In the Evening of Election Day

Crimson spreads across the west. The eastern edge bleeds softly, pale stars on blue, stripes of red and tender white, a flag the sky hangs out by itself.

Flower scent, caught in the teeth of the dark, drifts sideways on the wind.

*

One rises, one falls. Your loss, my betrayal, hanging over the trembling land like smoke from a single lamp.

*

With the sound of bones licked clean, the counting goes down into me, takes root in the hollow of my soul, and splits what had been whole.

*

Neighbor and neighbor, eyes meeting across the void. No word is spoken, yet the silence is a battlefield.

*

I had fallen like a beast at the trough, gasping in the mire of the news.

Then one flowering tree, and my body was already rising before I knew it.

The blossoming tree, death itself standing before me in a bridal veil, reminding me that every throne is only for a season.

*

I no longer want to win. If I could ask for anything, I would ask only to see a human face again across the aisle, and in it, the Friend.

*

Past midnight a thin old moon rises in silence. Whoever wins tonight, perhaps it is her turn to grieve for all of us.

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Genesis 38

— The Woman Who Would Not Disappear

A seal.
A cord.
A staff.
Three ordinary things
held in a widow’s lap,
waiting for the hour
of their speaking.

*

Judah went down
from his brothers.
Er died.
Onan refused her a future,
and died.

“Wait in your father’s house
until Shelah grows.”

Shelah grew.
No one came.

*

A promise left empty
is a cup set on the table
and never filled.

Tamar waited
until waiting itself
became a kind of vanishing.

*

So she changed her garments,
veiled her face,
sat by the road to Timnah.

Judah passed
and did not know her.

Some veils hide.
Some veils reveal
the one who refused to see.

*

“She is with child.
Bring her out and burn her.”

How quickly the hand
lights the fire
for a sin it carries in its own sleeve.

*

Then the message:
“Recognize these.
Whose seal,
whose cord,
whose staff?”

The mirror turned.
Judah saw his own face.

“She is more righteous than I.”

*

The heart is a house
with many locked rooms.
Repentance is the key
that turns
only from the inside.

*

At the birth,
a small hand reached out.
The midwife tied a scarlet thread.
The hand withdrew,
and Perez broke through first.

Breach.
Breaking through.

*

I have stood, over the years,
where Judah stood,
quick to judge
what I would not name in myself.

Lord, give me eyes
for the overlooked,
for the widow on the roadside
of my life.

*

The Beloved writes the promise
through the margins,
in a scarlet thread
on a wrist
almost forgotten.

Tamar would not disappear.
Through a broken door
the truth walked in.

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Traveling to Normal

– in the Fall Creek Falls in Tennessee State Park

We ran one hundred ten miles
across the globe
to Spencer, Tennessee,
two hours away
from the familiar world.

Then, step by step,
only 0.35 miles down,
we entered
the deep heart of hell.

Forty-five minutes descending,
with weakened knees,
without trekking poles,
each step heavier
than chained feet
being led into darkness.

The path fell sharply,
rocks beneath our feet,
uneven ground,
rough steps twisting downward.

Above us,
the ceiling of stone leaned over the trail
as though it might fall
at any moment.

The sleepy faces of ancient rocks
seemed to whisper:

Stop.
Go back.
Why are you going downhill
so late in your life?

Do not try hell.

Yet we continued.

From the spectator’s place at the top,
we had seen a fish
moving through the dark pond below,
a tiny life
inside the shadow.

On our way down
we met a dog
coming back up.

He had been swimming
in that dark pond at the bottom.

He did not look tired at all.

No fear.
No complaint.
No trembling knees.

Only the dog
walking upward
as if hell
were simply another place
to swim.

When at last we reached the bottom,
we discovered
many people had already arrived.

They rested peacefully
among the rocks.

We gave up trying
to reach the dark water itself.

Instead,
we stood still
and looked upward.

From heaven
a long silver hair
fell 256 feet
into the dark pond below.

But the silver hair
was not one strand.

It broke apart
into millions of drops,
each surrendered to gravity,
each falling freely
into darkness.

And yet,

with her silver essence,
she carried light
into hell.

Less than half a mile down,
yet it had felt
longer than an afternoon,
longer perhaps
than distance itself.

Slowly the great sinkhole
filled with shadow.

The light withdrew.

Time and space
returned to our minds
and whispered:

Now.

You must climb.

Our mission was done.

We rested,
then turned our faces upward.

A middle-aged man passed us.

We asked,

“Were you the man
we saw behind the waterfall?”

“Yes.”

A minute later
he disappeared from our sight,
climbing the dangerously sharp, rocky path
as though flying
toward heaven.

But I could not fly.

My two hip sockets
grew heavier
and heavier with pain.

The walls pushed us upward.
The ceiling of rock pushed us upward.
The dark pond behind us
pushed us upward.

Zigzagging,
we climbed.

The dark brown road to heaven
was no lighter
than the road to hell.

Every step became slower.

Every breath became deeper.

Every rock seemed heavier.

Hell was easy to enter.

Heaven
required climbing.

Yet through the opening above us,
the colors of the season
began to shine.

Gold.
Crimson.
Orange.
Green surrendering gently
to another life.

And we could not forget
to shout:

“The heaven in the season’s colors
brings our hearts
great joy and praise.”

Then I understood:

Heaven had not been waiting
only at the top.

It was in the silver water
falling into darkness.

It was in the dog
who swam without fear.

It was in the stranger
flying upward.

It was in our painful knees,
our aching hips,
our struggling breath,

and in each stubborn step
that refused
to remain below.

Perhaps this is
traveling to normal:

to descend
into what looks like hell,

to discover
a little heaven there,

and then,
slowly, painfully, gratefully,

to climb again
toward the light.

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Genesis 37

— The Dream in the Pit

A robe of many colors
catching the Canaan light,
seventeen years old,
not yet knowing
what a dream can cost.

*

A father’s love, unevenly poured,
like wine served to one guest
while the rest wait thirsty.

The brothers saw.
They could not speak peace.

*

Sheaves bowing in the field.
Sun, moon, eleven stars
bowing in the night.

A dream can be worn
like the robe,
or kept like a pearl
inside the shell.

Jacob kept it in his heart.
Joseph was still learning which.

*

“What are you seeking?”
a stranger asks in the field.

“I am seeking my brothers.”

The oldest question of the soul,
asked by a boy
lost near Shechem.

*

“Here comes the dreamer.”
A name made into a stone.

They strip the robe.
They throw him into a dry pit.
No water.
Only walls.

He dreamed of stars.
Now he sees one circle of sky.

*

Above him,
the sound of bread being broken.

Then spices, balm, myrrh
on the road to Egypt,
and twenty pieces of silver
for a brother.

*

A goat’s blood on the robe.
“My son’s robe.”
Jacob tears his clothes
and refuses comfort.

*

The chapter ends
with no stars,
only a caravan
going down.

But I have learned,
looking back on my own long road,
that the Beloved sometimes hides
the open door
in the shape of a pit,

and the seed
must be buried in the dark
before it remembers
it was always a tree.

*

Somewhere past the walls
he could not see,
the dream
was still breathing.

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Eyes of the Poet

Seeing the bones of feelings,
tasting the heights and depths,
the nearness and the distance,
the far and the near.

For a while,
wandering through the forest,
lost within its silence,
singing with the trees
and letting tears flow
into the streams.

Let the words from these bones
grow wings
and fly to the highest sky.

For a while, wondering through skyscrapers, lost within its streets of gold, singing with the signs, and letting winds flow into the music.

Seeing the bones of souls, tasting the quality and degree of interval in scale, and rhythm flow into hearts.

Let this communion
flutter softly upon our tears
and find its way
into the waiting hearts
of other poets.

Ah, seeing the music on your eyes.

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All Saints’ Sunday

– The Ever-Now

Ring the bell,
once for each name
that walked ahead of us.

Light the candle,
not for absence,
but because love
still knows how to shine.

*

Last night the streets wore masks.
Laughter wandered under the moon.

Now morning lifts the veil.

*

Look to the mountains.
From the high ridge
color pours downhill,
green, then rust,
then red, then gold,
gold fading into violet,
until heaven lies scattered
in the neighbor’s backyard.

*

Listen.
Cicada gives way to cricket,
cricket to the mockingbird
on the high wire.

One reed falls silent.
The same breath
moves to the next.

*

Where are the saints?

Here.
Behind us, beside us,
within us,
whirling through the stars,
singing in the Ever-Now.

They live in every gift,
every shared loaf,
every heart left open,
the remembered and the remembering
drinking from one cup.

*

So I ask:
Are you dead?
Am I alive?

Or have we always lived
in the same house of Love,
where death
is only a curtain
between two rooms?

*

The leaves change color
because they are alive.

And you, beloved saints,
are changing in me too,
into memory,
into gratitude,
into joy,
into praise.

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