The Mysticism of St. Bernard of Clairvaux

Mysticism in Western Tradition, THETH 352S-001, A course work of TaeHun Yoon with Dr. Pieter de Jong on October 25, 1984 in Drew Theological School, Madison, New Jersey. Certain notes/bibliography are updated with recent publications.

The foundation of St. Bernard’s entire theological system is love—not merely the inquiry into what love is, but the exploration of what love ought to be. For Bernard, authentic love is found only in God; indeed, Deus caritas est—God is love itself.¹ Accordingly, God sent Christ into the world for human redemption, and calls humanity to believe in Him without limit. Likewise, the reception of divine love is boundless. According to Bernard, the human person is both the object of God’s love and capable of becoming truly authentic by recognizing and responding to that love.²

What follows is an analysis of Bernard’s Christocentric mysticism, focused on three dimensions: his theological anthropology (view of the human person), his Trinitarian theology, and the mystical method that flows from both.


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1974), chap. 1.
  2. Étienne Gilson, The Mystical Theology of Saint Bernard, trans. A.H.C. Downes (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1990), 55.

A. HUMAN-PERSPECTIVE

(1). The Character and Structure

<a> The Character

St. Bernard affirmed that the human person is created imago et similitudo Dei—in the image and likeness of God—and is thus ontologically distinct from all other creatures. This foundational anthropological insight, rooted in Scripture and tradition, merits careful theological attention.¹

According to Bernard, the similitudo Dei—the likeness of God—can be obscured or lost through sin, particularly through the loss of infused virtue. The imago Dei, however, remains indelible and cannot be eradicated, even in the fallen state. Étienne Gilson identifies this distinction as the theological center of Bernard’s thought.² The image of God is singular and immutable, constitutive of human nature itself, and serves as the basis for human participation in divine majesty and dignity.

The loss of likeness constitutes a rupture in the moral and spiritual resemblance to God, diminishing the fullness of human flourishing. Nevertheless, the enduring divine image provides the ontological ground for spiritual renewal. In returning contemplatively to the self—uncovering the self concealed beneath sin—one is drawn back into conformity with God.³ Bernard refers to this movement of self-knowledge, born from the recognition of the divine image within, as humilitas (humility), which marks the true beginning of the soul’s ascent toward union with God.⁴


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, trans. Kilian Walsh and Irene Edmonds (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1971), sermon 82.
  2. Étienne Gilson, The Mystical Theology of Saint Bernard, trans. A.H.C. Downes (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1990), 75.
  3. Bernard of Clairvaux, On the Steps of Humility and Pride, trans. M. Ambrose Conway (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1989), chap. 2.
  4. Ibid., chap. 4.

<b> The Structure

St. Bernard distinguishes the human person as composed of both corpus (body) and anima (soul). The body, he teaches, is formed from the four classical elements—fire, air, water, and earth—while the soul is structured according to a Trinitarian pattern: memory (memoria), reason (ratio), and will (voluntas).¹ Though both body and soul are subject to corruption due to sin, each can be purified: the body through ascetic discipline, and the soul through the transforming power of divine love.²

A distinctive feature of Bernard’s anthropology is his rejection of a dualistic antagonism between body and soul. The soul does not yearn to be liberated from the body; rather, Bernard affirms their mutual interdependence. In alignment with the Pauline teaching—“It is not the spiritual that is first but the physical, and then the spiritual” (1 Cor. 15:46)—he affirms that the natural order precedes the spiritual.³ For this reason, Bernard identifies amor carnalis (carnal love) as the necessary starting point for the soul’s gradual ascent to spiritual and divine love.⁴

Bernard writes, “The body is indebted to the soul for its life, without which it would be a senseless trunk; but the soul is indebted to the body for its very existence, which consists in animating the body.”⁵ This integrated anthropology highlights Bernard’s concern with the lived, embodied nature of human existence and reveals that, for him, true spiritual transformation must take place within the context of concrete, daily life.

[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1974), chap. 2.
  2. Jean Leclercq, Bernard of Clairvaux and the Cistercian Spirit, trans. Claire L. Baker (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1976), 45.
  3. 1 Cor. 15:46 (NRSV).
  4. Étienne Gilson, The Mystical Theology of Saint Bernard, trans. A.H.C. Downes (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1990), 78.
  5. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, trans. Kilian Walsh and Irene Edmonds (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1971), Sermon 83.1.

(2) The Characters, Elements and the Function of Human Soul

<a> The Characters

Bernard of Clairvaux described the nature of the soul in Sermon 81 on the Song of Songs with remarkable precision: “The soul is life, living to be sure, but not by virtue of anything other than itself: and therefore, strictly speaking, not so much living as life. It follows that, when it is infused in a body, it vivifies the latter, so that the body becomes, from the presence of life, not life but living.”1 Here, Bernard presents the soul not merely as something that lives, but as life itself—an animating principle that imparts vitality to the body. In this framework, the soul functions as the intermediary of divine love, conveying animation from God to the human person. Bernard affirms that just as the soul animates the body, so too God relates to and vivifies the soul.2

Bernard further explored the relationship between soul, body, death, and resurrection: “There are two kinds of death and two kinds of resurrection. The first death is of the soul, the second of the body; the death of the soul is separation of the soul from God, the second is separation of the body from the soul. The former is effected by sin. Moreover, the first resurrection is of the soul by grace; the second is of the body, perfected by Christ’s glorious and open coming.”3 In this dual framework, Bernard emphasizes that the soul’s alienation from God through sin is its true death, while restoration through grace constitutes its resurrection. His vision of human nature thus rests on a profound theological union: between God and the soul, and between the soul and the body.


[Notes]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, vol. 3, trans. Kilian Walsh (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1976), Sermon 81.7. 2. Ibid., Sermon 81.8. 3. Bernard of Clairvaux, On the Resurrection of the Body, in The Works of Bernard of Clairvaux, trans. Robert Walton (Washington, DC: Catholic University of America Press, 1950), 42.

<b> The Elements

Bernard of Clairvaux understood the soul as comprising three fundamental faculties: memory (memoria), will (voluntas), and reason (ratio). He correlated these with the three divine Persons of the Trinity—the Son, the Spirit, and the Father, respectively—thereby establishing a theological anthropology deeply rooted in Trinitarian theology. This triadic structure of the soul serves as the cornerstone of Bernard’s mystical theology. As he writes: “That blessed and eternal Trinity, Father and Son and Holy Ghost, one God indeed—supreme power (summa potentia), supreme wisdom (summa sapientia), supreme goodness (summa benignitas)—created a certain trinity in its own image and likeness, namely the rational soul, which exhibits a certain trace of that supreme Trinity in this: that it consists of memory, reason, and will.”¹


[Note]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On the Love of God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1973), ch. 1.

(i). Memory

Memory, for Bernard of Clairvaux, is the most essential faculty of the soul, functioning as the seat of thought and reflection. In the state of sin or spiritual death, memory becomes fixated solely on past experiences, particularly those marked by guilt or separation from God. In such a condition, the soul echoes the state of spiritual death, unable to move beyond its former self. However, when the soul is enlivened by grace, memory is transformed: it becomes a vehicle for spiritual renewal by recalling God’s mercy, the hope of forgiveness, and the possibility of redemption. Through this recollection, the soul is drawn into contemplation and restored to life.¹


[Notes]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, trans. Kilian Walsh and Irene Edmonds, vol. 1 (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1971), Sermon 80.

(ii). Will

Bernard of Clairvaux distinguishes between two kinds of will: the voluntas communis (common will) and the voluntas propria (proper or self-will). Charity, he writes, “is the common will”—that is, the will shared between God and humanity, in contrast to the self-centered proper will.1 The voluntas propria inclines a person to love themselves more than God, distorting the soul’s orientation and creating a kind of spiritual “curvature”—a turning inward away from God. In contrast, the virtue of humility serves to discipline and redirect this self-will, conforming it to the voluntas communis. Through humility, the human being comes to see themselves rightly, submitting their personal desires to God’s will and judgment.2


[Notes]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1995), ch. 9.

2. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, trans. Kilian Walsh, vol. 1 (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1971), Sermon 80.

(iii) Reason

Bernard describes reason as the faculty of choice, responsible for discerning good and evil through ethics or moral philosophy, distinguishing falsehood through logic or speculative science, and determining what is expedient or inexpedient by means of natural philosophy.¹ Reason functions infallibly when illuminated by divine light. However, once deprived of this illumination, reason becomes fallible and prone to error. Because of this inherent fallibility, reason cannot restore itself independently but requires the aid of faith, which infallibly enables the distinctions that corrupted reason can no longer make.


[Note]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1995), ch. 11.


(iv) Will and Free will of Reason

The combined operation of will and reason is termed free choice or the consenting faculty. Bernard explains, “The consenting faculty, that is, the joint faculty of will and reason, is called free choice; the word ‘free willing’ and the word ‘choice’ means the action of reason.”1 He further distinguishes voluntary moral decision-making from free will itself. Free will, for Bernard, is the essential freedom from necessity — the fundamental capacity to accept or reject something. This freedom is notably distinct from the mere freedom possessed by animals, which lacks moral deliberation.2

Moreover, the freedom of free choice presupposes two conditions: freedom from sin and freedom from suffering. Only a person possessing true wisdom can exercise this freedom fully. Such wisdom is attained through mystical contemplation, which enables one to build genuine freedom.3


[Notes]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1995), ch. 12. 2. Ibid. 3. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, trans. Kilian Walsh (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1986), Sermon 65.

<c> The Function of Human Soul

The human soul comprises three fundamental functions: thought (cogitatio), emotion (affectio), and intention (intentio), which correspond to the three elements of memory, will, and reason, as previously discussed.1


[Note]

1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, trans. Robert Walton (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1995), ch. 5.

(i) Thought

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, thought originates from three sources: the human soul, evil spirits, and God.¹ Bernard maintained that it is impossible to make a clear distinction between thoughts that arise from the human mind and those influenced by evil spirits.² He further affirmed that every truly good thought is produced solely through the pre-existent grace of God.³ Ultimately, there is only one true cause of good: God, who acts without requiring human cooperation or merit.⁴


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, De Gratia et Libero Arbitrio [On Grace and Free Will], in Sancti Bernardi Opera, vol. 3, ed. Jean Leclercq and Henri Rochais (Rome: Editiones Cistercienses, 1963), 123.
  2. Ibid., 124.
  3. Ibid., 125.
  4. Ibid., 126.

(ii) Emotion

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, there are four primary emotions: love (amor), joy (laetitia), fear (timor), and sadness (tristitia).¹ These emotional elements are interrelated and often overlap in human experience.² From them arise the fundamental moral virtues: fear gives rise to prudence (prudentia) and justice (justitia); sadness produces prudence and fortitude (fortitudo); love gives rise to both justice and fortitude. Joy and sadness are considered the dominant emotional experiences, while love and fear represent the core orientations—or objective figures—of the soul.³ In particular, Bernard emphasized that the ultimate direction of fear is toward God and others.⁴


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, De Consideratione, in Sancti Bernardi Opera, vol. 3, ed. Jean Leclercq and Henri Rochais (Rome: Editiones Cistercienses, 1963), 210.
  2. Ibid., 211.
  3. Ibid., 212.
  4. Ibid., 213.

(iii) Intention

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, reason operates through three distinct forms of intention, each oriented toward a particular end: the useful (expedient), the good (bonum), and the true (verum).¹ Intention directed toward the expedient is called counsel (consilium), intention toward the good is called religion (religio), and intention toward the true is called consideration (consideratio).²

Furthermore, Bernard identifies three specific forms of consideration: dispensative, estimative, and speculative.³ These correspond respectively to the active life, the academic (or intellectual) life, and the contemplative life.⁴ Each form reflects a distinct mode of reasoning and spiritual engagement within Christian life and vocation.


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, De Consideratione, in Sancti Bernardi Opera, vol. 3, ed. Jean Leclercq and Henri Rochais (Rome: Editiones Cistercienses, 1963), 217.
  2. Ibid., 217–18.
  3. Ibid., 218.
  4. Ibid.

B. GOD’S PERSPECTIVE OF TRINITY

In this chapter, I will explore the character and structure of the God-perspective from a Trinitarian viewpoint, not to present each function from a human-centered lens, but to illuminate how it serves the restoration of the corrupted human soul.

(1) Christology

Christ stands at the center of Bernard of Clairvaux’s theology. For Bernard, the first step toward truth is humility, found through the suffering Christ. Accordingly, there is no path to God apart from Christ. As Scripture affirms, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father except through me.”¹

Bernard interprets this verse in the following way: Jesus is the way (ego sum via) for the unbeliever and the one oppressed under authoritarianism; the truth (ego sum veritas) for the stubborn person entrenched in fallen human nature; and the life (ego sum vita) for the weary soul.² Christ reveals Himself to us as our most faithful friend. He entered into human lowliness through His pre-existent love³ and offered Himself in death to satisfy divine justice. Through this profound act of self-emptying, He separated humanity from the stain of sin.⁴ “Learn from me,” Jesus says, “for I am gentle and lowly in heart.”⁵ Christ models true humility.

Therefore, Bernard asserts that knowledge of the truth is the fruit of humility, and that the union between the Word and reason gives birth to humility.⁶ In this light, the restoration of the corrupted human being—and the recovery of true reason—is possible only through Christ, who is the eternal Word. Bernard refers to this as Spiritual Marriage in his Sermon 86 on the Song of Songs, identifying Christ as the Bridegroom.⁷ Drawing on the biblical image of “the Bride, the wife of the Lamb”⁸ and “the Spirit and the Bride,”⁹ Bernard portrays a deeply intimate relationship between Christ and the soul.

In his commentary on Song of Songs 1:2—“Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth”—Bernard outlines three stages of spiritual development.¹⁰ The first is the purgative stage, represented by a kiss on the feet of Christ, which signifies conversion. The second is the illuminative stage, symbolized by a kiss on Christ’s hands, representing the fruits of piety and good works accomplished through grace. The third is the unitive stage, expressed by a kiss on the lips of Christ, signifying mystical union, when Christ dwells within the soul.

It is essential to remember that these steps of spiritual marriage are not achieved through human effort alone, but through the love of the Crucified Christ, who humbly seeks the sinner and the afflicted.¹¹ In Christ, the fallen human being regains the image of God, recovers right reason, discovers her or his true self, and is drawn into the way of love.


[Notes]

  1. John 14:6 (RSV).
  2. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 86.
  3. Ibid.
  4. Ibid.
  5. Matthew 11:29 (RSV).
  6. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Humility and Knowledge.
  7. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 86.
  8. Revelation 21:9.
  9. Revelation 22:17.
  10. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 2.
  11. Ibid., Sermon 3.

(2) Holy Spirit

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, the Holy Spirit is the gift of love.¹ Through the love of the Holy Spirit, humanity regains the common good originally given to us.² In other words, love itself is the gift of the Holy Spirit.

This love embraces those who have attained the first step of truth through humility in the Son.³ It then moves them toward the second step: engaging in acts of charity for others, in accordance with the guidance of the Holy Spirit.⁴ Thus, the role of the Holy Spirit is to generate love by uniting the Spirit of God with the human will.⁵ The Spirit purifies the human will so that individuals may freely and genuinely love others—even their enemies—by obeying the command of Christ in the Word: “Love your enemies.”⁶

At this point, love (or charity) becomes the shared will of God and the human person. The Holy Spirit is the mutual love between the Father and the Son.⁷ Through this divine love, we are drawn into the hearts of others, and in turn, come to truly understand them. This inner transformation bears the flowers and fruits of virtue and holiness. Ultimately, through love, we are led to the fullness of truth itself.⁸


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 8.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Ibid., Sermon 11.
  4. Ibid.
  5. Bernard of Clairvaux, On the Love of God.
  6. Matthew 5:44 (RSV).
  7. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 71.
  8. Ibid., Sermon 74.

(3) Holy Father

For Bernard of Clairvaux, the Holy Father is Truth itself—the very Being of all things.¹ The soul advances toward this Truth in three stages: the first through the effort of humility, the second through the affection of piety, and the third through the ecstasy of contemplation.² In Bernard’s words, love—by which we sympathize with others—draws us into purity, which then lifts us to invisible heights and transports us into contemplation.³

Thus, the knowledge of truth ultimately leads to union with the Holy Father, who is Truth itself.⁴ In Bernard’s theology, God is not merely described as great, good, just, or wise; rather, God is greatness, goodness, justice, and wisdom.⁵ He writes: “God is not formed; He is form. God is not affected; He is affection. God has no composition; He is pure simplicity.”⁶

The journey toward divine knowledge begins with self-knowledge.⁷ To know oneself is the beginning of wisdom; to know God is its fulfillment.⁸ In other words, the essential condition for spiritual development is self-knowledge that dispels pride and fosters humility.⁹ This humility is made possible through Christ. The second step is the knowledge of others, which becomes possible only through the window of love. When the mind is purified by love, it becomes capable of contemplating the Truth. Thus, knowledge of others becomes a bridge that connects self-knowledge to the knowledge of God—this, according to Bernard, is the work of the Holy Spirit.¹⁰

The third and final stage is the contemplation and understanding of Truth itself, where the soul recognizes that divine light is imparted to the essence of the Creator, not to creatures themselves.¹¹


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Ibid., Sermon 84.
  4. Bernard, On Loving God, ch. 15.
  5. Bernard, On the Knowledge of Self and of God.
  6. Ibid.
  7. Bernard, On Consideration, II.
  8. Ibid., III.
  9. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 36.
  10. Ibid., Sermon 74.
  11. Ibid., Sermon 75.

(4) Character of God-Perspective

As mentioned above, the central focus of Bernard of Clairvaux’s Trinitarian theology is love. “He who does not love does not know God; for God is love.”¹ Since Deus caritas est—God is love—the essential condition for knowing and understanding God is to know what love is.²

According to Bernard, love exists in two forms.³ First, love is God Himself. Second, love is a gift given by God to human beings.⁴ This distinction is crucial in Bernard’s theology. He draws this insight from the scriptural text: “Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God” (Caritas ex Deo est).⁵ For Bernard, this gift of love is identical with the gift of the Holy Spirit.⁶

This understanding was shared broadly among the Cistercian mystics. The gift of the Holy Spirit enables the soul to understand God through love.⁷ While no one can see God directly, when love—given as a divine gift—dwells in us, God dwells in us.⁸ In this sense, perfect love is not something we generate ourselves, but something given and completed in us by God.⁹ Thus, the reason we are called to love God is clear: because God first took the initiative to love us.¹⁰

Étienne Gilson summarizes Bernard’s Trinitarian perspective by noting that the Holy Spirit is the mutual love that unites the Father and the Son, and the Son with the Father.¹¹ Love, therefore, is the unifying force within the Divine Life itself, a bond that grants humanity both the peace and grace of God. Importantly, love is not something external or added to God, but the very essence of God.¹²


[Notes]

  1. 1 John 4:8 (RSV).
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard of Clairvaux, On the Love of God, ch. 4.
  4. Ibid.
  5. 1 John 4:7 (RSV).
  6. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 8.
  7. Ibid., Sermon 11.
  8. 1 John 4:12.
  9. Bernard, On the Love of God, ch. 7.
  10. Ibid., ch. 1.
  11. Étienne Gilson, The Mystical Theology of Saint Bernard (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1990), 119.
  12. Ibid.

C. MYSTICAL METHODOLOGY OF BERNARD

As mentioned above, we observed that the essence and function of the soul is to breathe life (animation) into the human body. I also noted that the Trinitarian perspective of God aids us in attaining knowledge of God. Now, I will seek to explore practical methods for uniting with God, grounded in both the human perspective and the divine perspective.

(1) The Humility and the Purification of Reason

<a> The Definition of Humility

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, humility consists in humbling oneself through sincere self-examination.¹ This process involves coming to a true understanding of oneself. Without humility, no one can fully comprehend their own nature.² Moreover, it is impossible to grasp the truth without first attaining self-knowledge grounded in humility.³ Bernard affirms this, stating, “It is clear enough, I think, from the verse cited that knowledge of the Truth is the fruit of humility.”⁴

Humility is therefore the path to truth because God reveals the truth to the humble while concealing Himself from the proud.⁵


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Humility and Pride, Sermon 3.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard, On Self-Knowledge, ch. 2.
  4. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 36.
  5. Bernard, On the Knowledge of God, ch. 5.

<b> The Character of Humility

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, humility is the essential condition for receiving grace, because God grants grace to the humble but withholds it from the proud.¹

Building on this, Burch distinguishes two kinds of humility in Bernard’s thought, as articulated in the 34th Sermon on the Song of Songs: cognitive humility and conative humility.² Cognitive humility is necessary and involuntary; it is a function of the will that does not depend on human merit. This form of humility constitutes the essential condition for grace, enabling the soul to receive it. In contrast, conative humility is voluntary and associated with human merit; it is the love that arises as the reward for grace already given.³

Bernard describes three stages of grace relating to humility. The first is preventing grace, given in the state of nature, in which God grants humiliation to restore the noble nature of the human being—this corresponds to cognitive humility.⁴ The second is proceeding grace, given to one already in the state of preventing grace, where God bestows true humility, a delight in humiliation—this is conative humility.⁵ The third stage is rewarding grace, given to those in the state of proceeding grace, wherein God grants exaltation.⁶

Therefore, in Bernard’s theology, humility is primarily caused by pre-existent grace, preceding any voluntary human effort or merit. Moreover, true humility involves progressing from cognitive to conative humility—moving from mere self-awareness to active love. Thus, humility is the indispensable condition for attaining both love and truth.⁷


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 34.
  2. James Burch, Humility and Grace in Bernard of Clairvaux, Journal of Medieval Theology 12 (1998): 45–60.
  3. Ibid.
  4. Bernard, On Grace and Humility, ch. 3.
  5. Ibid., ch. 5.
  6. Ibid., ch. 7.
  7. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 36.

(c) The Twelve Steps of Humility and Pride

In his work De Gradibus Humilitatis (On the Steps of Humility), Bernard of Clairvaux outlines twelve steps that lead a person from pride to humility, following the Rule of St. Benedict (the Benedictine Rule).¹ Bernard describes these twelve stages in detail, pairing each step of pride with its corresponding stage of humility.

The first step of pride is curiosity (curiositas), while the final and twelfth step of humility is reached when a person not only harbors humility in their heart but also visibly displays it to all who observe them.² The second step of pride is frivolity (levitas animi), and the eleventh step of humility is when a person speaks quickly but humbly, gravely, and briefly, without laughter or a loud voice.³ The third prideful step is foolish mirth (inepta laetitia), and the tenth step of humility is attained when a person is not easily moved to laughter.⁴

The fourth step of pride is boastfulness (jactantia), contrasted with the ninth step of humility when a person restrains their tongue, practicing silence and only speaking when questioned.⁵ The fifth prideful step is singularity (singularitas), while the eighth step of humility is doing only what the example of one’s elders enjoins.⁶ The sixth step of pride is conceit (arrogantia), opposed by the seventh step of humility, in which a person not only confesses verbally that they are lowly and inferior but also truly believes it in their heart.⁷

The seventh prideful step is audacity (praesumptio), balanced by the sixth humility step where a person is content with all things mean and vile and regards themselves as a poor and worthless servant in obedience.⁸ The eighth prideful step is excusing sins (defensio peccatorum), with the fifth humility step involving humble confession to one’s spiritual father of all evil thoughts and secret faults.⁹ The ninth prideful step is hypocritical confession (simulata confessio), while the fourth humility step is patience and quiet acceptance of suffering, even when unjust or contrary to nature.¹⁰

The tenth prideful step is wearied defiance (rebellio), opposed by the third humility step when a person submits obediently to their superior for the love of God.¹¹ The eleventh prideful step is freedom to sin (liber peccandi), with the second humility step reached when a person does not seek to satisfy their desires but imitates humility in daily life.¹² Finally, the twelfth step of pride is habitual sinning (consuetudo peccandi), while the first step of humility is keeping the fear of God ever before one’s eyes and remaining mindful of all God’s commandments.¹³

Bernard prefers the path of humility over the pursuit of pride. He advocates the careful descent into humility rather than an ambitious ascent.¹⁴ Magil comments that by studying this descending way—which protects us from pride—we can discover the true path toward humility. These twelve steps represent the recovered path that leads to Bernard’s ideal humility after understanding the descent.¹⁵


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, De Gradibus Humilitatis, in Sancti Bernardi Opera, vol. 3, ed. Jean Leclercq and Henri Rochais (Rome: Editiones Cistercienses, 1963), 145.
  2. Ibid., 146.
  3. Ibid., 147.
  4. Ibid., 148.
  5. Ibid., 149.
  6. Ibid., 150.
  7. Ibid., 151.
  8. Ibid., 152.
  9. Ibid., 153.
  10. Ibid., 154.
  11. Ibid., 155.
  12. Ibid., 156.
  13. Ibid., 157.
  14. Bernard, On Humility, Sermon 3.
  15. John Magil, Humility and the Spiritual Life, Journal of Medieval Theology 10 (2000): 78.

<d> The Result of Humility

Humility, according to Bernard of Clairvaux, gives rise to five key spiritual results.

The first result of humility is self-knowledge.¹ This is the most direct fruit of humility and constitutes the first form of knowledge on the path to truth. The second result is self-examination, which emerges when we examine ourselves with sorrow and contrition.²

The third result is justice, which Bernard identifies as conative humility—a virtue that flows from cognitive humility.³ Justice here involves acting rightly in response to the truth we discover about ourselves. The fourth fruit is charity, which arises when we become deeply aware of our own weaknesses—clearly seen not only by ourselves but often by others as well. This honest recognition, borne of humility, prepares the soul to love.⁴

The fifth and final result is the profound knowledge of our own nothingness—the sense of spiritual emptiness that we experience as we long to draw closer to God.⁵ In this recognition of our lowliness, the soul becomes more receptive to grace.

Through these effects of humility, reason is enabled to reach the first stage of truth: self-examination. Ultimately, we advance to the second stage, which is charity, by reclaiming the will to love and to understand others.⁶


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 36.
  2. Ibid., Sermon 37.
  3. Ibid., Sermon 38; see also James Burch, Humility and Grace in Bernard of Clairvaux, Journal of Medieval Theology 12 (1998): 53.
  4. Bernard, On the Love of God, ch. 7.
  5. Ibid., ch. 12.
  6. Bernard, On Consideration, II.5.

(2) Love and Purification of will

<a> The Character and Motive of Love

Bernard of Clairvaux distinguishes between two types of love: spiritual passion and carnal passion.¹ Spiritual passion corresponds to caritas (charity), while carnal passion is identified with concupiscentia (concupiscence or disordered desire).²

In Bernard’s theology, love involves the transformation of concupiscence into spiritual passion.³ Without this transformation, what may appear to be emotional charity—love as an act of the will—remains rooted in natural or secular desire. However, true love becomes active and properly ordered when it aligns with the commandment to love: “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind… and your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the law and the prophets.”⁴

Thus, a distinctive feature of love in Bernard’s thought is its development from natural, self-centered inclination to spiritual, God-centered devotion. This transformation enables the human person to move from passive affection to active love—fulfilling the will of God.⁵ However, Bernard teaches that this active love ultimately becomes ecstatic love—a love that goes beyond the self in self-forgetful union with the divine.⁶

Étienne Gilson further develops Bernard’s understanding of love by distinguishing between natural love (which he describes as physical or realistic love) and ecstatic love (or spiritual love).⁷ Natural love follows an essential inclination toward one’s own good and reflects the original tendency of created beings. But ecstatic love, in contrast, transcends the self—it moves the lover to be “outside of oneself” and to exist “for another.”⁸

Bernard maintains that the human being, in their original nature, does not possess grace and cannot recover it by their own power.⁹ True love, therefore, can only be restored through the grace of God.¹⁰ This divine grace is the motive force that empowers love—not merely self-love but love directed toward God, who is Love itself.¹¹ This, Bernard argues, is why we must love God. God can even be loved by those who do not yet know Christ, because divine love precedes human knowledge.¹²

Ultimately, love in Bernard’s theology seeks no reward beyond union with the beloved. Yet paradoxically, in giving itself away, love still receives its greatest reward—perfect union with God.¹³


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 4.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 20.
  4. Matthew 22:37–40 (RSV).
  5. Bernard, On Grace and Free Will, ch. 7.
  6. Ibid., ch. 10.
  7. Étienne Gilson, The Mystical Theology of Saint Bernard (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1990), 127.
  8. Ibid., 129.
  9. Bernard, On Grace and Free Will, ch. 2.
  10. Ibid., ch. 3.
  11. 1 John 4:8.
  12. Bernard, On Loving God, ch. 15.
  13. Ibid., ch. 16.

<b> The Steps of Love

Love is one of the four basic human emotions, along with fear, joy and sorrow.

(i). The Love of Self For Self

As Bernard of Clairvaux quotes, “It is not the spiritual that comes first, but the physical; then the spiritual.”¹ This statement reflects a fundamental theological principle: love begins with the carnal (carnalis) and progresses toward the spiritual. While carnal love is not directly addressed in the commandments, it functions as the necessary starting point of all forms of love.² This is an apodictic truth—we cannot love God or others unless we first possess life, and we cannot sustain life unless we possess a form of self-love. In other words, “we must live in order to love God, and we must love ourselves in order to live.”³

According to Bernard, this initial form of love begins in the body and is intertwined with human desires and the avarice of the flesh.⁴ Because we are embodied beings, we often fall into sin by loving our physical selves more than we love God’s commandments. This disordered love—rooted in fleshly desires, anxieties, and weaknesses—disturbs the soul and distances us from divine love.⁵

Thus, Bernard emphasizes the need to listen to God’s commands, for they guide us back toward ordered love. In our fallen condition, grace becomes essential: it is through the grace of God that we are redirected from self-centered desire to love for God and others.⁶ At this point in the spiritual journey, Bernard teaches that we begin to love others not merely out of self-interest, but as a means of participating in God’s redemptive love. In loving others, we are, by grace, drawn back into the proper order of love and into deeper union with God.⁷


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 20.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard, On Loving God, ch. 2.
  4. Ibid., ch. 3.
  5. Bernard, On Grace and Free Will, ch. 4.
  6. Ibid., ch. 5.
  7. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.

(ii). The Love of God for One’s Own Sake

Even when a person claims to love God, their perspective may still not be aligned with God’s own.¹ Though such a person may exhibit prudence, the motivation behind their love often remains self-centered. In this case, the individual seeks God’s grace not purely out of love, but for personal benefit—for safety, comfort, or security.²

In other words, this person loves God not for God’s sake, but for their own. They turn to God in times of hardship, relying on divine love to gain protection or maintain dignity amid life’s challenges.³ This form of love, while sincere to a degree, is still rooted in self-preservation. Such a person has already realized that they cannot overcome life’s difficulties by their own strength, and thus depends on God’s help—yet without fully transcending their own self-interest.⁴


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 9.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.
  4. Ibid., ch. 10.

(iii) The Love of God for God’s Sake

At this stage, the person no longer loves God for their own benefit, but purely for God’s own sake.¹ As Bernard of Clairvaux wrote, “He loves God now, not for his own sake but for Himself.”² This transformation occurs when one truly hears and receives the Word of God—not merely secondhand, but through personal encounter. As the people of Samaria declared: “It is no longer because of your words that we believe, for we have heard for ourselves, and we know that this is indeed the Savior of the world.”³

The soul that loves God in this way has already tasted the sweetness of the Word, as described in Scripture: “Like newborn infants, long for the pure, spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow into salvation—if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good.”⁴ Such love flows from direct experience of God’s kindness and truth, not from obligation or self-interest.

At this level of spiritual maturity, the Christian no longer experiences God’s commandments as burdensome. Instead, obedience becomes a joy, especially when it involves love and service to others.⁵ In this way, the soul reaches a higher state of authentic Christian life—where love is not merely reactive or utilitarian, but pure, selfless, and sustained by grace.⁶


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 10.
  2. Ibid.
  3. John 4:42 (NRSV).
  4. 1 Peter 2:1–3 (NRSV).
  5. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.
  6. Ibid., ch. 11.

(iv) The Love even of Self only for God’s Sake

When a person reaches the fourth and highest degree of love, they love even themselves for God’s sake.¹ In this state, there is complete harmony between the will of God and the will of the human person. The individual becomes a “new being,” whose deepest desire is to do the will of God through self-negation.² Unlike the first degree of love, which is self-centered and seeks God only for personal benefit, this final stage reflects self-affirmation through surrender—a life wholly grounded in God’s presence.³

This degree of love cannot be attained by human effort alone. It is the result of divine grace—a gift granted by God.⁴ Bernard illustrates this transformation with vivid imagery: a piece of iron, when heated to the point of melting, begins to resemble fire. Its original nature seems to disappear, but it remains iron. Similarly, when a soul is fully immersed in God’s love, it becomes so united with the divine will that it radiates God’s light.⁵ Like air illuminated by a sunbeam, the self shines with God’s glory, though it is not light itself—it is still human.⁶

This mystical union is not about the annihilation of the self, but about the transfiguration of the self in love. It is the ultimate state of Christian maturity, where the believer’s identity is no longer defined by self-will, but by communion with God’s will.⁷


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 15.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.
  4. Bernard, On Grace and Free Will, ch. 6.
  5. Ibid.
  6. Ibid.
  7. Bernard, On Loving God, ch. 16.

<c> The Result of Love

Love is, at its core, the image of God imprinted on the human soul.¹ It is most fully revealed and activated through the human will, especially when that will is restored and aligned by the work of the Holy Spirit.² Once the human will is renewed, it becomes capable of uniting with the divine will through love.³

At this stage, love does more than express emotion—it becomes the dynamic force that draws the soul toward truth itself.⁴ This movement of the soul, propelled by love, leads the believer into the third and highest degree of truth, which Bernard describes as contemplation.⁵ In contemplation, the soul no longer seeks knowledge for practical ends or moral insight alone, but enters into the mystery of divine presence—a knowing born out of loving union with God.⁶


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 1.
  2. Ibid., ch. 3.
  3. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.
  4. Ibid., ch. 9.
  5. Bernard, De Consideratione, Book V.
  6. Bernard, On Grace and Free Will, ch. 7.

(3) Contemplation and Completion of Truth

Bernard of Clairvaux understood the knowledge of Truth as unfolding in three progressive steps. The first step is the knowledge of self, which is attained through humility and allows the soul to regain its right use of reason. The second step is the knowledge of others, made possible by a purified heart that sees others through the lens of love. Finally, the third step is the knowledge of God, reached through contemplation—where the soul enters into communion with God as the Truth itself.

<a> The Process and Essence of Contemplation

For Bernard of Clairvaux, the core of his mystical theology is the practice of contemplation, which he defined as the soul’s ascent toward God, the Supreme Good.¹ The ultimate aim of this mystical contemplation is not mere knowledge, but union with truth itself

In his Sermons on the Song of Songs, Bernard identified three progressive stages of contemplation.³ The first stage is for those who are not yet capable of contemplation due to spiritual immaturity. To overcome this limitation, they begin by meditating on the crucified Christ, drawing close to God’s mercy through humility.⁴

The second stage is for those who are more spiritually advanced. Here, the contemplative experiences a kind of spiritual vision—a glimpse into the heavenly realm where saints and angels dwell. This stage inspires awe and longing for holiness.⁵

The third and highest stage is reserved for those who are more perfected in humility and love, having developed the capacity for mystical union. At this level, the contemplative encounters the Word of God in three dimensions: as natural law, moral law, and divine law.⁶

Bernard describes this in three movements:

  1. The soul is rapt in wonder at the vision of natural law, which imparts knowledge.
  2. The soul is rapt in fear and trembling before the vision of moral law, which brings wisdom.
  3. The soul is rapt in love and joy in the vision of the divine law, which is love itself and brings peace.⁷

This highest vision—the law of God as love—is experienced through the sensitivity of the soul, in which love becomes the mode of seeing. It is the mystery of spiritual marriage, the consummation of perfect contemplation, in which the soul is united with God in ineffable intimacy.⁸


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 10.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 74.
  4. Ibid.
  5. Ibid., Sermon 77.
  6. Bernard, De Consideratione, Book V.
  7. Ibid.
  8. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.

‹b> The Cause of Contemplation and the Condition of Spiritual Marriage

For Bernard of Clairvaux, the grace of God is the fundamental cause of contemplation.¹ As he wrote, “Pure truth is seen only with a pure heart.”² This vision of truth, therefore, is not attained through rational discourse alone, but rather through the holiness of life

Contemplation requires that both understanding and love be purified. The organ of understanding is reason, and the organ of love is the will. Bernard teaches that reason is purified by humility, and the will is purified by love.⁴ When both are purified, the soul becomes capable of union with God—an ineffable consummation of divine intimacy.⁵

Bernard’s concept of mystical communion, however, must not be misunderstood as a fusion of essences between the divine and the human.⁶ Rather, it is a perfect communion of wills.⁷ That is, the will of the lover and the will of the Beloved do not become one by nature or substance, but by their shared purpose and desire.⁸ In this lies true mystical union—not in identity, but in intentional unity.

Bernard describes this mystical union as akin to the relationship between a fish and water.⁹ Though they remain distinct, they are inseparably connected. Water is necessary for the life of the fish, while the fish, in motion and life, gives meaning to the water. This mutual dependence and harmony represent the distinctive character of Bernard’s mystical theology.¹⁰

Finally, contemplation in Bernard’s thought has two essential dimensions: it is both cognitive and erotic.¹¹ No one can understand truth without loving it, and no one can truly love it without understanding it. Thus, Bernard famously described the contemplative act as a kiss.¹² But this kiss must be without distortion or coldness. To become the Bride of Christ, the soul must prepare two lips—the lip of reason for understanding, and the lip of will for wisdom.¹³ This represents the third stage of reaching the Truth through right reasoning, and the fourth stage of loving others on the way to God.¹⁴


[Notes]

  1. Bernard of Clairvaux, On Loving God, ch. 10.
  2. Ibid.
  3. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 83.
  4. Ibid., Sermon 74.
  5. Bernard, De Consideratione, Book V.
  6. Ibid.
  7. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 71.
  8. Ibid.
  9. Ibid., Sermon 78.
  10. Ibid.
  11. Bernard, On Grace and Free Will, ch. 7.
  12. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 86.
  13. Ibid.
  14. Ibid.

<c> The Result of Contemplation

According to Bernard of Clairvaux, the final result of contemplation is beatitude.[1] Among all living beings, only the human being possesses the capacity for this blessed state. This is because only the human soul is capable of uniting reason and will through contemplation.[2]

When contemplation is brought to completion, it leads to perfect understanding by refining the faculty of reason and purifying the soul through divine love. In this way, contemplation restores the will, making it fully aligned with God’s will.[3]

At its highest point, this process produces perfect communion between the human will and the divine will. Through this communion, the soul enters into beatitude—the blessed happiness of union with God.[4] This state is also described by Bernard as deification (deificatio), where the human soul is not absorbed into God’s essence, but participates in the divine nature through grace and love.[5]


[Notes] 1. Bernard of Clairvaux, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 85. 2. Ibid., Sermon 73; see also On Loving God, ch. 12. 3. Bernard, De Gratia et Libero Arbitrio, sec. 6. 4. Bernard, Sermons on the Song of Songs, Sermon 80 5. Jean Leclercq, Bernard of Clairvaux and the Cistercian Spirit (Kalamazoo: Cistercian Publications, 1976), 132.

D. CONCLUSION

Several theologians supported Bernard’s view, including E. Gilson, A. Harnack, P. Tillich, Aulén, and others.

Gilson writes, “We may remark here as in the case of the First Epistle of St. John, that St. Bernard would seem to have exhausted all the resources with the text in question put at his disposal. … St. Bernard so welded it with the Johannine bloc that the two become altogether one.”1 In other words, God is love. God gives us love, and we live in Him/Her who dwells in us as love. Ultimately, God lives within us.2

This shows that Bernard’s theological perspective is deeply rooted in love. Humility is essential for the capacity to love, and true humility is fulfilled through love. According to Bernard, one can reach God through contemplation. In this sense, Bernard’s mystical theology clearly contains a practical dimension.

Secondly, the path to God, for Bernard, is fundamentally Trinitarian in nature. Once a human being reaches humility and regains corrupted reason through Christ, he or she can come to the knowledge of God and fulfill every faculty of the soul in the state of love.

Thirdly, Bernard’s theology may be described as Christocentric mystical theology. As Gilson notes, Bernard was not only a theologian but also a profound contemplative—one with a great capacity for spiritual insight. His theological pursuit was deeply oriented toward the practice of the spiritual life, centered on love realized through humility.3 In this regard, his theology is practical in character.

Therefore, Bernard may be considered one of the key figures who laid the foundation for speculative mysticism in the Western tradition. Gilson recognized Bernard as holding a central place in the history of theology.4

[Notes]

1 Étienne Gilson, The Mystical Theology of St. Bernard, trans. A. H. C. Downes (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1990), 88.

2 Ibid., 89.

3 Ibid., 91.

4 Ibid., 93.

5 Ibid., 95.

Paul Tillich distinguished two forms of mysticism: concrete mysticism, which participates in the loving and saving God, and transcending mysticism, which seeks to reach the ultimate ground of all being, beyond all finite realities. Bernard’s mysticism falls under the former category—concrete mysticism—which is specifically Christ-centered. This form of mysticism is revealed in humility and enables the believer to participate in the reality of God through Jesus Christ.6

[Note]

6 Paul Tillich, A History of Christian Thought, ed. Carl E. Braaten (New York: Touchstone, 1968), 205.

In the case of Adolf Harnack, he observed that Bernard revived the Augustinian tradition of contemplation within Christian mysticism. Bernard emphasized union with God through love, centered on the person of Jesus Christ. His mysticism was a form of Christ-centered contemplation, in which truth and love are revealed through the image of the suffering Christ.7

[Note]

7 Adolf Harnack, History of Dogma, trans. Neil Buchanan (New York: Dover Publications, 1961), 6:132.

On the other hand, Gustaf Aulén argued that Bernard avoided the danger of pantheism because his theology was rooted in the themes of spiritual marriage and the revelation of Christ.8

[Note]

8 Gustaf Aulén, Christus Victor: An Historical Study of the Three Main Types of the Idea of Atonement, trans. A. G. Hebert (New York: Macmillan, 1969), 117.

As discussed above, Bernard’s mysticism clearly reveals the practical and historical dimensions of Christian mysticism. If we appropriate his mystical vision as a source of spiritual vitality in our modern context—an age often characterized by a deep, hollow nihilism—we may rediscover a path for genuine, passionate faith that does not drift into mystical fantasy devoid of ethical and historical consciousness.9

Secondly, Bernard’s vision may help to revitalize the Church, which in many contexts has lost its spiritual fervor due to rigid institutionalization and excessive systematization.

Thirdly, his mystical theology opens the door to a renewed humanization—recovering both the dignity and grandeur of the human person—especially relevant in a time when modern individuals are worn down by the dehumanizing effects of scientific and material (or mechanical) civilization.

These are tasks entrusted to us, as contemporary Christians, through the transformative work of the Holy Spirit.10

[Notes]

9 See Jean Leclercq, Bernard of Clairvaux and the Cistercian Spirit, trans. Claire Lavoie (Kalamazoo, MI: Cistercian Publications, 1976), 102–3.

10 Ibid., 105.


(The sex-inclusive language terms in this paper are myown.)

Conclusion: A Gentle Challenge

Bernard’s mystical theology invites us not to retreat into isolation or esoteric spirituality, but to let humbled hearts, loving wills, and transformed minds flow into every aspect of life.

He calls us to a radical faith: loving for God’s sake, praying for transformation, and serving others in a spirit of spiritual marriage. As we integrate his vision into our homes, churches, and communities, we enact the timeless truth that in God-centered love and contemplation, we find true life, true purpose, and true joy.

Summary Table: Bernard’s Mystical Path and Its Relevance

Stage/ThemeBernard’s EmphasisContemporary Application
HumilitySelf-knowledge → purified reasonCounsels authenticity, mental health, and character formation
LoveSelf-negation → spiritual charityInspires social action, volunteerism, compassion work
ContemplationMystical union via purified willSupports mindfulness, presence, and inner peace
Communion with GodSpiritual marriage, will-alignmentLeads to vocational clarity and creative vocation

Bernard of Clairvaux offers more than medieval nostalgia—he provides a living tradition of spiritual formation rooted in humility, love, and contemplation that addresses modern maladies of isolation, anxiety, and surface-level religion. By engaging his theology:

  • Individuals can rediscover depth of faith and purposeful living beyond routine.
  • Churches can foster vibrant spiritual communities centered on transformation, not just programming.
  • Society can rediscover meaningful integration of thought, heart, and service in an era starved for authenticity and unity.

Final Reflection: Love as the Final Word

Bernard’s theology, mystical yet accessible, reminds us that:

“Love is not only the path to God. Love is the face of God.”

In a world broken by division, striving, and distraction, Bernard’s vision invites us into a holy simplicity: to know ourselves truly, to love others sincerely, and to dwell with God intimately.

In the words of Bernard himself:

“Where love is, there God is. Where God is, there is no lack.”

Challenges in Contemporary Application

While Bernard’s insights are rich, modern readers may struggle with:

  • The language of hierarchy and subordination
  • The medieval framework of sin and merit
  • The tension between eros (desire) and agape (divine love)

These can be navigated by reframing Bernard’s core insights in psychological and existential terms. For example:

Bernard’s TermContemporary Language
Self-love (first stage)Ego-centered identity or survival instinct
HumilityPsychological integration and emotional maturity
Union with GodSpiritual awakening or consciousness of divine presence
Kiss of the WordIntimate communion with mystery or truth

1. Individual Renewal Through Mystical Practice

Bernard’s emphasis on humility, love, and contemplation provides a clear path for personal spiritual growth. In today’s fast-paced world, these practices invite individuals to:

  • Cultivate inner stillness: Through daily meditation on the Crucified Christ and Scripture, believers learn to quiet inner turmoil and open their hearts to divine grace.
  • Develop moral integrity: As one progresses through Bernard’s stages, the purification of reason and will produces sincerity, patience, and compassion in daily life.
  • Experience intimacy with God: Contemplation transforms religious devotion from duty to a living relationship—mirroring Bernard’s call to spiritual marriage with God.

2. Community and Ecclesial Formation

The communal and sacramental dimensions of Bernard’s scheme encourage churches and faith-based organizations to:

  • Foster mentorship: Spiritual maturity flourishes in communities where experienced believers guide others through the stages of spiritual growth—from humility to contemplation.
  • Integrate spiritual formation: Beyond institutional programming, Bernard’s framework promotes discipleship that cultivates the heart as much as the mind.
  • Revitalize worship: A renewed focus on contemplative silence, liturgy, and sacrament preserves the mystical core of Christian worship.

3. Dialogue with Secular Culture

Bernard’s theology offers vital conversation points with modern society:

  • Countering existential emptiness: As materialism and consumerism exhaust the human spirit, contemplative practices rooted in humility and love reawaken purpose and transcendence.
  • Bridging science and spirituality: Bernard’s vision of deificatio—participation in divine life—provides a philosophical model for dialogue between faith and reason, where spirituality enriches, rather than opposes, scientific inquiry.
  • Uniting personal faith with social action: Bernard insists that mystical union must translate into loving service—bridging the divide between personal devotion and active love toward others.

4. Integrating Bernard’s Approach into Personal Devotion

Implementing Bernard’s framework in daily spiritual life involves a rhythmic interplay of humility, love, and contemplation:

  • Morning Reflection: Begin each day with a brief self-examination, inviting the Spirit to reveal hidden pride or self-interest. This primes the heart for humility.
  • Midday Meditation: Pause at a transitional moment in your day to meditate on the crucified Christ. This helps interrupt natural self-centered urges and restores focus on divine love.
  • Evening Contemplation: Conclude with a moment of silent presence before God, allowing the purified reason and will (through prayer and scripture) to rest in divine truth—opening the door to mystical union.

Over time, these patterns orient the soul toward consistency in spiritual awareness, transforming the mundane into opportunities for grace encounters.


5. Mentorship and Formation in Churches

To cultivate maturation as Bernard envisaged, communities can adopt structured yet flexible guidelines:

  1. Spiritual Mentors or “Elders”: Individuals who embody humility and spiritual depth can meet regularly with mentees to guide them through the contemplative stages.
  2. Small Group Practices: Focused groups can engage in lectio divina, shared periods of silence, and discussions on Bernard’s sermons—promoting both understanding and shared holiness.
  3. Sacramental Rhythms: Frequent reception of the Eucharist and confession mirrors the theological moves of sanctity—restoring union with God and neighbor.

6. Societal Impact Beyond the Church Walls

Bernard’s mysticism extends outward into the marketplace, civic life, and global concerns:

  • Ethical Work Ethos: When work springs from a heart transformed by humility and love, it becomes an act of worship, influencing industries to prioritize dignity, justice, and purpose.
  • Restorative Justice: Forgiveness and reconciliation reflect Bernard’s vision of self-negating love. Communities shaped by contemplative hearts foster more compassionate justice systems.
  • Environmental Stewardship: Contemplation cultivates attention to beauty and life. Humble reverence for creation leads to sustainable care and ecological advocacy.

7. Inviting a New Generation

Bernard’s theology speaks to those who crave depth, spiritual identity, and impact in a fragmented age:

  • Youth Engagement: Retreats, pilgrimages, or digital guides inspired by Bernard can attract spiritually searching young people needing authentic experiences beyond hobbyist faith.
  • Interfaith Conversations: Contemplation and mystical union resonate with many religious traditions. Bernard’s Christ-centered path can anchor Christologically while engaging other wisdom streams.
  • Leadership Formation: Whether in nonprofit organizations, families, or schools, leaders shaped by contemplative love are equipped to lead with integrity, vision, and empathy.

8. A Three-Year Spiritual Formation Curriculum

Inspired by Bernard’s progressive stages, faith communities could offer a structured three-year formation program, designed to guide participants from humility to mystical union:

YearFocusPractices
Year One: HumilitySelf-awareness and repentanceDaily examen; confession; mentorship on identifying pride and seeking grace
Year Two: Purified LoveLove of God and neighborLectio divina; midweek service projects; prayer circles focused on charity
Year Three: ContemplationMystical union in GodExtended retreats; Eucharistic adoration; silent contemplative prayer

This curriculum offers both structure and flexibility, integrating communal formation with deep personal spiritual growth.


9. Spiritual Retreat and Pilgrimage

Drawing from Bernard’s own practice, communities can incorporate immersive spiritual retreats modeled after monastic rhythms:

  • Three-Day “Cruciform Retreat”: Focus on the Cross through solitude, journaling, and meditative prayer.
  • Weekend “Mystical Bridge” Pilgrimage: A shoreline walk or mountain climb accompanied by guided silence, symbolizing ascent toward spiritual union.
  • “Marriage with God” Retreat: Extended time in Eucharistic adoration, lectio, and sacred reading aimed at deepening spiritual intimacy.

These retreats cultivate inner clarity, spiritual resilience, and a renewed sense of calling.


10. Incorporating Technology in Contemplation

Even in a digital era, Bernard’s pathways can be adapted for wider access:

  • Guided Meditation Apps: Short, contemplative prayers rooted in Bernard’s imagery—cross, fish-and-water, kiss of contemplation.
  • Virtual Lectio Groups: Weekly online gatherings combining Scripture, silence, and gentle facilitation.
  • Social Media “Humility Challenges”: Short reflections encouraging participants to name pride, express gratitude, or perform humble acts of service.

These tools help sustain spiritual rhythms in busy or scattered communities.


11. Measuring Spiritual Fruit

Transformation through Bernard’s mysticism can be evaluated not by program metrics, but by spiritual markers:

  • Growing Compassion and Sensitivity: Is there a noticeable shift in how individuals respond to suffering and need?
  • Interior Peace and Resilience: Do participants show greater ability to endure hardship or uncertainty?
  • Consistent Contemplative Practice: Are forms of silence, meditation, and solitude becoming habitual?
  • Communal Impact: Are participants initiating acts of service, reconciliation, or ecological stewardship?

These signs, though qualitative, demonstrate lives shaped by Bernard’s mystical grace.


12. Future Directions

By taking inspiration from Bernard, faith communities can pioneer:

  • Contemplative Leaders Networks rising from grassroots practitioners.
  • Books and Devotionals introducing Bernard’s path to a broader audience.
  • Academic Scholarship and Dialogue bridging Benedictine, Cistercian, and contemporary spiritual streams.

13. Bernard’s Relevance in Intercultural and Interfaith Dialogue

Bernard’s mystical theology, centered in love and humility, offers a universal spiritual language that can bridge intercultural and interfaith communities. In today’s pluralistic society, his emphasis on:

  • Self-knowledge through humility,
  • The universal longing for divine love, and
  • Transformation of the will toward peace and communion

provides a foundation for dialogue that transcends doctrinal barriers. In interfaith gatherings or multicultural settings, Bernard’s stages of love (from self-love to God-love) could be explored as shared human experiences—inviting understanding, not conflict.

Example Application:

  • A “Path of Love” symposium, where Christian, Buddhist, Jewish, and Muslim scholars present on the stages of love and contemplation in their traditions.
  • Community workshops using Bernard’s steps of humility as a framework for restorative justice and reconciliation.

14. Renewing Preaching and Teaching

Bernard’s deeply contemplative yet pastoral theology also revitalizes preaching and theological education:

  • Preachers are encouraged not only to inform, but to transform, leading listeners from awareness of pride to participation in divine love.
  • Theological students and seminarians can be trained in “mystical reasoning”—a mode of theological reflection that integrates head, heart, and will.
  • Sermons might follow Bernard’s structure: beginning with self-examination, moving to love of neighbor, and culminating in union with God.

Suggested Preaching Series (based on Bernard’s stages):

  • Week 1: “Curiosity and Pride: The First Step Downward”
  • Week 2: “Confessing Our Condition: The Turning Point”
  • Week 3: “Knowing Myself, Knowing God”
  • Week 4: “The Kiss of Christ: Love as Union”

15. Spiritual Leadership through Bernard’s Lens

Church leaders shaped by Bernard’s mystical path embody a leadership style that is:

  • Non-coercive (marked by humility rather than power),
  • Grounded in contemplation,
  • Oriented toward healing,
  • Capable of discerning truth in the stillness of love, and
  • Radically inclusive, because love recognizes the dignity in every soul.

Bernard’s model of leadership encourages servant-leaders to recognize when to speak and when to be silent, when to act and when to surrender. The mystical path equips them with depth and discernment, so needed in times of uncertainty.


16. Bernard’s Mysticism in the Context of Pastoral Care

Bernard’s insights provide rich resources for pastoral care, especially for those navigating suffering, spiritual dryness, or identity crises. His emphasis on Christ as the center of all healing and the gradual transformation of the soul through love and humility can be translated into a healing model that resonates deeply with individuals today.

Applications in Pastoral Counseling:

  • The First Degree of Love (loving self for self’s sake) can help individuals acknowledge their needs without shame—a starting point for healing.
  • The Second Degree (loving God for self’s sake) allows one to experience divine support during suffering.
  • The Third Degree (loving God for God’s sake) calls the person into deeper trust and surrender, even amid unanswered prayers.
  • The Fourth Degree (loving self for God’s sake) becomes the fruit of long-term spiritual healing and the restoration of one’s divine image.

Through these stages, a counselor or spiritual director can help individuals identify where they are on their journey and how grace is already active in their transformation.


17. The Role of the Church in Cultivating Mystical Life

Bernard’s vision invites the church to become more than a doctrinal institution; it becomes a school of love, a community of contemplation, and a sanctuary for the soul. His writings inspire us to imagine a church that nurtures:

  • Silence as sacred space
  • Simplicity as spiritual practice
  • Service as a fruit of contemplation

Worship services shaped by Bernard’s theology would emphasize mystery, sacred reading (lectio divina), and time for interior reflection. Christian formation would not just be about knowledge of doctrine, but transformation into the likeness of Christ.


18. Mysticism and Justice: A Modern Synthesis

Though Bernard’s writings are deeply contemplative, their implications for justice and solidarity are profound. The love of God necessarily opens into the love of neighbor, especially the oppressed, forgotten, or marginalized. Bernard’s call to humility breaks the ego that sustains systems of power, while his contemplation of Christ crucified identifies God with those who suffer.

A Bernardian approach to justice begins in the soul—but it does not end there.

“No one can truly gaze upon the broken body of Christ without being moved to compassion for the broken body of the world.”

Churches rooted in Bernard’s mysticism can become centers of quiet revolution, where interior transformation fuels public action rooted not in anger or ideology, but in love purified by grace.


19. Final Theological Summary: Bernard’s Contribution

To summarize Bernard’s mystical theology, we can outline his key contributions:

  1. Christocentric Spirituality – Christ is both the path and goal of the soul’s journey.
  2. Trinitarian Perspective – The dynamic of divine love (Father–Son–Spirit) becomes the model and means of human transformation.
  3. Humility as the Gateway to Truth – All spiritual knowledge begins with self-knowledge.
  4. Love as the Ladder to Union – Through the four degrees of love, the soul climbs toward divine intimacy.
  5. Contemplation as Divine Participation – Not merely vision, but union of will and heart with God.
  6. Practical Mysticism – A theology that integrates contemplation with action, doctrine with experience, and soul with community.

20. A Closing Word to the Modern Reader

In a time of technological noise, moral fragmentation, and spiritual fatigue, Bernard’s mystical theology offers not only a historical treasure but a prophetic invitation:

  • To slow down.
  • To turn inward.
  • To rediscover God not as idea, but as love who dwells within.
  • To live a life shaped by humility, purified by grace, and anchored in truth.

May Bernard’s words echo in the hearts of those who still seek the Kiss of the Word, and may his vision help guide us all “from knowledge to love, and from love to union.”

“The soul’s true life is to love God; its perfection is to be one with Him.” – Bernard of Clairvaux

Final Invitation

Bernard of Clairvaux invites us into a transformative journey: from humility, through purified love, into mystical union with God. It is a journey neither passive nor remote, but deeply engaged and resolutely practical.

May our communal embrace of Bernard’s path lead to hospitable churches, integrated lives, and a kinder, more contemplative world, where people discover that God-centered love reveals our truest humanity.

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“Blueprint of Faith”

Whenever we plan to start something new, there is often a thought that makes us hesitate: “What will others think of me?” or “What if I get criticized or ridiculed for stepping up?” Especially within a group or community, when someone is asked to take responsibility, they often respond, “I’m not qualified,” and firmly decline. This is not uncommon—those who take initiative often find themselves wounded, even after doing their best. It’s nearly impossible to satisfy everyone, as people hold a wide range of opinions and expectations.

Naturally, we all prefer praise to criticism. We long to be respected rather than rebuked. As a result, many people hold back—even suppressing their talents and abilities—because they fear standing out or causing friction. “Living quietly, avoiding being a burden to anyone” becomes a kind of life philosophy. But often, this is just a polite excuse for a weakened will.

Yet, in a lifetime, isn’t it a rare and precious thing to be able to share our dreams and convictions—grounded in faith—with the world around us?

Last week, I visited San Francisco and finally saw the Golden Gate Bridge, which I had longed to see since childhood. While its beauty and grandeur were breathtaking, what moved me most was the story of Joseph B. Strauss, the chief engineer who envisioned and oversaw its construction.

The bridge was intended as a symbolic welcome for soldiers returning from the Pacific War. But before construction began in 1933, few people believed in his design. At the time, building a bridge meant constructing solid piers in the water. But Strauss proposed something revolutionary: a suspension bridge, held aloft by cables strong enough to withstand even earthquakes—something to be passed down to future generations.

Many scoffed. His vision was considered nothing more than foolish fantasy. He approached 1,200 companies seeking sponsorship, and faced over 2,000 lawsuits. But he held fast to his dream: “To build a bridge that can endure any natural disaster and be an enduring legacy.”

Finally, Bank of America invested $27 million, and the bridge was completed on May 21, 1937. Even after its completion, skeptics continued to predict its collapse. A year later, Strauss passed away—without ever seeing the full appreciation of his achievement.

Now, more than 50 years after its opening, the Golden Gate Bridge still stands firm. Engineers have declared, “As long as San Francisco exists, the bridge will remain.” Over 100,000 vehicles cross it daily. It is not just a point of pride for the city, but for the entire nation.

As I left San Francisco, I found myself deeply moved—not just by the bridge, but by the unwavering dream and willpower of Joseph Strauss. He once drew inspiration from the smallest of creatures—a spider—and its web, and from that, sketched out the blueprint for what would become an iconic monument. His spirit lives on, shining across generations.

Today, in our communities, charitable organizations, and churches, we need many workers. There are countless urgent needs calling out for someone to step forward. And yet, I wonder—have I held back? Have I even failed to encourage those who do step up?

We no longer live in a time where we can simply remain quiet and avoid criticism. Especially as believers, we must shift from the fearful thought of “What will others think of me?” to the liberating question: “What can I do for others?” This kind of mindset frees us from unnecessary concerns about how we are perceived. It leads to real, meaningful action—actions that become our own kind of Golden Gate Bridges, lasting and impactful.

The sacred work accomplished through the blood, sweat, and tears of the apostles has opened a path for us—a path of authentic faith that transcends time and space. Even now, countless people are passing from death to life upon that road of faith. And today, God’s precious work—something only I can do—is waiting for me.

To design a life of faith is to dedicate one’s life to something worthy and eternal. And so, I whisper in my heart:
“As long as my life endures, my faith in God shall endure as well.”

It’s time to revisit the blueprint of my faith once again.

– Letter from the Parsonage (8), WanHee Yoon

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“믿음의 청사진”

무슨 일을 계획하고 시작하려 할 때, 가장 먼저 우리를 주저케 하고 망설이게 하는 것이 있습니다. 그것은 ‘혹시 남들이 뭐라고 생각할 까?’ 아니면 ‘괜히 나섰다가 욕이나 먹고 흉이나 잡히면 어떻게 하지?’ 라는 생각들입니다. 특히, 단체 안에서 어떤 일의 적임자를 발견 하고 그 일을 맡기려 할 땐 “난 자격이 없습니다.” 하고 극구 사양을 하는 경우를 보게 됩니다. 사실상 어느 조직이나 단체를 위해 앞에 나서서 일을 하게 되면, 일을 하고 나서도 상처를 받게 될 때가 비일비재 한 것이 사실입니다. 사람들의 생각과 주장이 다양하기 때문에 그 모든 이들을 완전하게 만족시킨다는 일은 불가능하기 때문입니다.

사람이면 누구나 남으로부터 싫은 소리보다 인정받고 존경받기를 원합니다. 그러므로 어지간한 일에는 구태여 나서기를 두려워하여 자신의 능력과 재능까지도 사장시켜 버리고 맙니다. ‘조용히 사는, 모든 이들에게 걸림돌이 되지 않는 것’ 이 인생 철학인 양 구태여 변명하지만, 그 속에는 연약한 자신의 껶여진 의지가 숨겨져 있는 것입니다. 그러나 일평생 살아가면서 자신의 믿음을 통한 꿈과 의지를 여한없이 사회를 위해 펼쳐 볼 수 있는 것 또한 귀한 일이 아닐 수 없습니다.

지난 주에 샌프란시스코를 방문하면서 어릴 적부터 가보고 싶었던 금문교(Golden Cate Bridge)를 배를 타고 바라보면서 감회가 깊었습 니다. 그것은 교각 없는 다리의 웅장하고 아름다운 모습도 모습이었지만, 그 다리를 설계 감독한 Joseph B. Strauss의 굽힐 줄 모르는 의지와 꿈이었습니다. 이 다리는 태평양 전쟁에서 돌아오는 병사들을 환영하기 위한 상징으로 건설되었는데, 1933년 공사를 시작하기 전 까지 아무도 그의 설계를 인정치 않으려 했습니다. 다리를 건설한다고 하면 먼저 물 위에 교각을 세우는 것이 당시의 통념이었으나, 설계자인 Joseph B. strauss는 지진에도 무너지지 않으며 자손들에게 영원히 물려줄 수 있는 다리를 연구하던 중, 철사줄 묶음으로 된 케이블을 이용하여 케이블이 다리를 들고 서 있는, 이른바 현수교를 설계한 것이었습니다. 많은 사람들이 비웃으며 반대를 시작하였습니다. 그 일은 당시에 분명 ‘어리석은 몽상’이었습니다. 그가 스폰서를 얻기 위해 1,200개 기업체의 문을 두드렸으며, 그를 향해 2,000건의 각종 법정 소송이 걸리게 되었습니다. 그러나 그에게는 ‘어떤 자연의 재난에도 견딜 수 있는, 자손대대로 물려줄 금문교를 지으리라’는 굽힐 줄 모르는 불같은 의지가 있었습니다. 결국 그는 아메리카 은행(Bank of America)의 2,700만 달러의 과감한 투자를 끌어내어 1937년 5월 21 일 완공을 보았습니다. 금문교가 버젓이 개통된 후에도 그 다리는 곧 붕괴해 버릴 것이라는 반대론자들의 비아냥댐 속에 다리를 건설한 지 일년 후 그는 결국 세상을 뜨고 말았습니다.

금문교가 개통된 지 50여 년이 지난 지금에도 다리가 얼마나 견고 한지 “샌프란시스코가 존재하는 한 금문교도 영원하다.”라는 것을 기술자들이 증명하고 있습니다. 다리 위를 통과하는 차량의 수는 하루에 십만 대 이상을 넘고 있으며, 금문교는 샌프란시스코 주민들의 자랑이며 미국의 자랑이 되고 있습니다.

샌프란시스코를 떠나오면서 Joseph B. Strauss의 꿈과 의지가 무엇 보다도 부러웠습니다. 금문교의 청사진을 뇌리에 그리면서 가장 작고 보잘것없는 거미에게서 지혜를 얻어 그 꿈을 끝내 실현했던 그의 위 대한 정신은 이 땅에 영원히 남아 자손대대로 빛나고 있습니다.

우리가 살고 있는 이 도시와 자선단체, 교회에서는 많은 일꾼들을 필요로 합니다. 내가 나서지 않으면 안 될 시급한 일들이 이 구석 저 구석에서 신음하며 도움을 청하고 있습니다. 그러나 나는 오히려 뒷짐지고 아무것도 하지 않으면서, 앞에 나서서 이리 뛰고 저리 뛰는 이들을 향해 용기를 주는 일에 조차 인색하지 않았는지 반성케 됩니다. 이젠 나 혼자만이 안전한 테두리 안에서 싫은 소리 듣지 않고 인정받으며 조용히 살기엔 시대가 너무 급박한 것 같습니다. 특히, 주님을 믿는 우리들은 ‘남들이 뭐라고 생각할까?’ 라는 소극적이고 부정적인 생각 보다는 ‘남을 위해서 내가 무엇을 해줄 수 있을까?’ 라는 적극적인 자세는 우리를 결박시키고 있는 모든 불필요한 시선으로부터 자유함을 갖게 할 것입니다. 뿐만 아니라 그곳에는 생산적인 실체가 따르게 되며, 그 실체는 또 다른 모양의 금문교가 되어 이 땅에 길이 남게 됩니다.

사도들이 피땀흘려 이룩한 하나님의 거룩한 사역들은 시간과 공간을 초월하여 인간으로서 진실하게 사는 믿음의 길을 우리 앞에 터놓있습니다. 그 믿음 위에 지금도 수많은 사람들이 죽음에서 생명의 땅으로 넘어서고 있습니다. 오늘도 나만이 담당할 수 있는 귀한 하나님의 사역이 기다리고 있습니다. 믿음의 설계란 평생을 바칠 만한 가치가 있는 것입니다. “나의 삶이 존재하는 한, 하나님을 향한 나의 믿음도 영원하다.”라는 선언을 마음속에 외치며, 내 믿음의 청사진을 다시 한번 점검해 봅니다.

– 목사관 서신 (8), 윤 완희

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“Tribute to Pastor Neil Irwin”

Good morning.

I am here today to honor and celebrate the life and legacy of the late Pastor Neil Irwin. I also come seeking a spiritual closure—a way to lovingly release our bond into the hands of God.

As I stand here, I feel as if I’ve stepped into a time capsule, taking me back to 1984—over 40 years ago—when I could barely say more than “yes” or “no” in English. Back then, I tried to understand others mostly through facial expressions and body language. I preached only from a manuscript, with a heavy Korean accent. Yet, the congregation welcomed me with grace, accepting me as their pastor with open hearts.

Neil was among the very first people to welcome my family when we moved into the Coxsackie parsonage—a young, unfamiliar Asian family arriving in a small town. I still remember his big frame, his bright, pure smile, and the little boy he held in his arms. He wore a sleeveless white T-shirt and looked every bit the gentle giant.

A few weeks after my first Sunday service, I made a pastoral visit to his parents’ home. I’ll never forget his father’s words: “I’m a baby maker!” With a smile, he told me Neil was the oldest of their children. “I’ve got three grown kids and two little grandchildren.” That moment revealed to me just how richly God had blessed this family.

Let me take you now into Neil’s life within the church.

He was my soul mate in ministry.
• We were born the same year.
• We shared a childlike simplicity.
• We always said “yes” to each other, choosing unity over differences.

He was like an angel, always sheltering others under his wings.
1. He greeted my newborn son in December 1985—right after Christmas, during a heavy snowfall.
2. He helped lead youth group snow sledding adventures.
3. He organized whole-church hayrides.
4. He poured his heart into the annual community Thanksgiving dinner.
• He gathered donations and rallied men to help.
• He put turkeys in the oven at 4 a.m.
• He delivered meals to those alone by noon—and even on a snowy day, made sure everyone received their meal by 4 p.m.
5. He joined daily morning prayer at 6 a.m.
• One morning, after my wife WanHee and I had been praying alone for days, Neil came in and asked, “I wonder how many are supporting this.”
• We smiled and said, “So far, five of us—myself, WanHee, the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.”
• From that day on, he never missed a single morning.
6. He helped organize community service with local inmates.
• Twelve model inmates helped install ceiling panels in the sanctuary.
• When the project was complete, we celebrated Holy Communion with them at the altar.
• They signed a watercolor painting of the cross with a crown of thorns.
• Years later, one of those men brought his fiancée back to the church to show her the painting—and the signature he had left behind.

Right after that communion, Neil approached me and asked for a blessing at the altar. He said he wanted to offer his whole life to the Lord. At that moment, I didn’t know what God had in store for him—but I knew the Spirit was leading him.

His favorite Word was “You must be born again.” (John 3:7b)

Now, Neil is with the Lord—free from all physical limitations, smiling that big white smile, and watching over us from above. His spirit lives on in the love he gave and the lives he touched.

Thank you for allowing me to share this long reflection. Please forgive me for taking so much time—I’ve come a long way from the Appalachian mountains of East Tennessee.

Thank you for listening.

In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit,
Amen.

by Rev. TaeHun Yoon, September 25, 2017, 6 pm

Cornelius Bogart “Pastor Neil” Irwin III

Birth: 23 Apr 1949, Catskill, Greene County, New York, USA

Death: 9 Jun 2016 (aged 67), Cobleskill, Schoharie County, New York, USA

Burial: Riverside Cemetery, Coxsackie, Greene County, New York, USA

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“故 닐 어윈 목사님을 기리며”

안녕하세요.

저는 오늘 이 자리에 고(故) 닐 어윈 목사님의 삶과 사역을 기리고, 제 영혼 깊은 곳에서 그분과의 관계를 마무리하기 위해 섰습니다. 영적인 작별 인사를 드리기 위함입니다.

이 자리에 서니, 마치 시간 캡슐을 타고 1984년으로 돌아간 듯한 느낌이 듭니다. 그때 저는 영어로 “Yes”와 “No”밖에 할 줄 몰랐고, 대부분 사람들의 얼굴 표정이나 몸짓 언어로 의사를 이해하려고 했습니다. 설교는 오직 원고를 읽는 방식이었고, 발음은 무거운 한국 억양이 묻어나 있었습니다. 그럼에도 불구하고 교우들은 저를 너그럽게 받아주시고, 설교자로 받아주셨습니다.

닐은 우리가 콕삭키(Coxsackie) 교회 사택에 이사 왔을 때, 그 낯선 아시안 가족을 따뜻하게 맞아준 이들 중 한 사람이었습니다. 당시 그는 큰 체구에 해맑고 순수한 웃음을 지으며, 품에 아이를 안고 있었습니다. 민소매 흰 티셔츠를 입고 있었던 모습이 지금도 기억납니다.

첫 주일 예배 후 몇 주가 지나, 저는 그의 부모님 댁에 심방을 드렸습니다. 그의 아버님께서 하신 말씀이 아직도 생생합니다. “나는 애 만드는 사람이오. 닐이 큰아들이지요. 자식 셋 다 장성했고, 손주 둘이 있답니다.” 그 말 한마디에 이 가정이 얼마나 하나님의 풍성한 복을 누렸는지를 느꼈습니다.

이제, 저는 닐 목사님의 교회 공동체 안에서의 삶을 함께 나누고 싶습니다.

그는 제 사역의 ‘소울 메이트’였습니다.
• 저희는 같은 해에 태어났습니다.
• 단순하고 순수한 마음을 나눴습니다.
• 서로에 대한 신뢰로 늘 “예스”라 말하며, 차이를 뛰어넘어 함께 걸었습니다.

그는 ‘천사’ 같았습니다. 늘 날개 아래서 우리를 감싸 안아주었습니다.
1. 1985년 12월 29일, 크리스마스 직후 폭설이 내릴 때, 제 아들이 태어났고 닐은 그 아기를 반겨주었습니다.
2. 청소년들과 함께 눈썰매를 타며 웃음을 나눴습니다.
3. 온 교회가 함께한 건초 수레 타기 행사를 기획했습니다.
4. 매년 지역 사회의 추수감사절 만찬을 준비하며, 집에서 홀로 지내는 이들을 위한 배달 봉사도 빠뜨리지 않았습니다. 헌금을 모으고, 남성 봉사자들을 조직했으며, 새벽 4시에 칠면조를 오븐에 넣어 구웠고, 정오까지 모든 음식을 준비하여 직접 배달했습니다. 폭설이 내린 날조차도 포기하지 않고, 오후 4시까지 모든 집에 음식을 전달했습니다.
5. 매일 새벽 6시, 교회에서의 기도 모임에도 참여했습니다. 어느 날 아침, 저와 아내 완희가 홀로 기도하고 있는데, 닐이 들어오며 말했습니다. “이 기도를 얼마나 많은 이들이 지지하고 있을까요?” 저희는 미소 지으며 말했습니다. “지금까지 다섯이요—저와 아내, 그리고 성부, 성자, 성령.” 닐은 웃었고, 그 이후로 단 한 번도 빠지지 않았습니다.
6. 그는 지역 사회 봉사를 위해 모범 수감자들과 함께 교회 천장을 설치하는 프로젝트도 이끌었습니다. 출소를 앞둔 12명의 수감자들이 이 프로젝트에 참여했고, 프로젝트가 끝난 후, 우리는 성찬식을 함께 나눴습니다. 그들은 제 아내가 그린 가시관을 쓴 십자가 수채화에 서명을 남겼습니다. 몇 년 뒤, 그들 중 한 명이 자신의 약혼자와 함께 교회를 다시 방문해 “여기에 내 서명이 있어요”라고 말했습니다.

그 수감자들과의 성찬이 끝난 직후, 닐이 제게 다가와 제단에서 축복을 요청했습니다. 그는 “내 인생 전체를 주님께 드리고 싶다”고 말했습니다. 그 당시 저는 하나님께서 그를 어떻게 이끄실지 알 수 없었지만, 주님의 영이 그를 부르고 있다는 것은 분명히 느낄 수 있었습니다.

그가 늘 가슴에 담고, 애송한 말씀은 “거듭나야한다.”(요한복음 3장 7절) 였습니다.

이제 닐은 하늘나라에서 주님과 함께 계십니다. 그리고 우리가 다시 반갑게 만날 때를 기다릴 것입니다. 이 땅에서의 육체적 고통은 모두 사라졌고, 언제나처럼 하얗고 넓은 미소를 머금은 채, 우리가 어디에 있든, 무엇을 하든 늘 지켜보고 계실 것입니다.

이렇게 긴 이야기를 나눈 것, 너그러이 이해해주시기를 바랍니다. 제가 동남부 테네시의 애팔래치아 산맥에서 먼 길을 달려왔기 때문입니다. 이야기가 길어졌습니다.

경청해 주셔서 진심으로 감사드립니다.

성부와 성자와 성령의 이름으로,
아멘.

윤태헌 목사, 2017년 9월 25일 오후 6시

Cornelius Bogart “Pastor Neil” Irwin III

Birth: 23 Apr 1949, Catskill, Greene County, New York, USA

Death: 9 Jun 2016 (aged 67), Cobleskill, Schoharie County, New York, USA

Burial: Riverside Cemetery Coxsackie, Greene County, New York, USA

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“The Nest”

It was last spring. I thought I had cleaned up the study on the second floor nicely, but noticed a pile of twigs scattered on the floor beneath the window. Without thinking much of it, I swept them away. However, not long after, similar straw-like bits had piled up again.

Puzzled, I looked around carefully, and soon heard the fluttering and cheerful chirping of birds outside the window. Peeking out, I saw two Blue Jays busily gathering leaves and twigs, building a nest between the windowsill and the bottom of the air conditioner unit.

“Aha! The birds are building a home!” I was overjoyed and warmly welcomed the precious guests that had moved into our house. It’s common for birds to build their nests high up in trees, so the fact that they chose the second-floor window of the parsonage was a delightful surprise.

We had previously stuck a piece of clear Scotch tape under the air conditioner, so all we had to do was pull back the curtain to get a full view of the nest. That, too, was an unexpected joy.

The birds worked diligently on their nest. In just one day, a soft and cozy little home had been completed. What I found fascinating was that the bottom of the nest was made from coarse, entangled twigs, while the top was layered with soft feathers and fluff, making it warm and cushiony.

I began to enjoy quietly listening for the birds and sneaking a peek behind the curtain whenever they were away.

Then one day, I saw three beautiful white eggs neatly laid inside the nest. The sight of these tiny lives quietly incubating atop the nest was sacred beyond words. A few days later, unfamiliar high-pitched chirping sounds filled the room—sounds I had never heard before. The eggs had hatched! The mother and father birds were flying in and out, constantly feeding the newborn chicks.

Normally, the baby birds stayed completely silent. But the moment they heard the flutter of wings or the distant call of their parents, they instantly awoke and filled the whole house with noise and excitement.

Around the parsonage, many birds of unknown names came and went, calling out to one another in a symphony of high and low pitches. Yet these baby birds could distinguish the unique voice of their parents among the many sounds. Even when the parent birds were still far off, just circling near the nest, the chicks would open their yellow beaks wide and cry out in excitement.

Watching the lives of these small creatures unfold before my eyes, I couldn’t help but think of God’s loving hand. I was filled with gratitude.

When God sends life into this world, He also prepares food and shelter in advance. Until each life is ready to grow and stand on its own, His hand cares for them perfectly. And yet, despite this divine care, how often do we live each day in anxious worry, foolishly consumed with thoughts like “What shall we eat?” or “What shall we wear?”

These birds reminded me how absurd that is.

God created the universe as a great nest and desires to receive praise from His creation. What we can do is to praise His providence, find joy in His care, and listen for His voice.

Just like those baby birds—who ignore every other sound but respond only to the voice of their mother—we, too, are called to discern and answer the voice of our heavenly Father.

– Letter from the Parsonage (7), WanHee Yoon

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“둥지”

작년 봄이었습니다. 이층에 있는 서재를 깨끗이 치워 놓은 것 같은 데, 창문 밑에 나뭇가지가 바닥에 수북하게 떨어져 있었습니다. 무심 결에 치워 버렸습니다. 그런데 얼마 후 지푸라기 같은 검불들이 또 쌓 여 있었습니다. ‘참 이상한 일이다(?) 생각하며 주변을 가만히 살피다 보니, 창가에서 새들이 요란스럽게 지저귀면서 푸드득거리는 소리가 들렸습니다. 가만히 보니 두 마리의 블루제이(Blue Jay)가 나뭇잎들을 부지런히 모아다가, 창틀에 놓여 있는 에어컨디셔너 밑쪽 사이에 집을 짓는 것이었습니다.

“아하! 새들이 집을 짓기 시작하는구나! 저는 너무나 기뻐 우리집에 이사 온 귀한 손님들을 환영하였습니다. 새들은 주로 높은 나뭇가지 위에 둥지를 짓는 일이 예사인데, 목사관 2층 서재의 창가에 집을 짓는 일은 너무나 즐거운 일이 아닐 수 없었습니다. 우리는 맑은 스카치 테이프를 에어컨디셔너 밑에 붙여두었기 때문에, 커튼만 걷어내면 새 둥지를 훤히 들여다볼 수 있는 것이 또한 여간 기쁜 일이 아니었습 니다.

새들은 열심히 집을 지었습니다. 하루가 지나니, 어느새 보기에도 푸근한 훌륭한 보금자리가 완성되었습니다. 재미있는 일은 둥지 밑에는 거친 나뭇가지들로 얼기설기 엮었지만, 위에는 보드랍고 고운 털들을 풀고 풀어 푹신하게 만든 것이었습니다. 저는 조용히 귀를 기울이고 있다가, 새들이 외출한 사이에 가만히 커튼을 열고 들여다보 는 일을 무척 즐기게 되었습니다.

그런데 어느날, 둥지 위에 세 개의 탐스럽고 흰알들이 가지런히 놓여 있는 것이었습니다. 생명들이 나란히 둥지 위에서 부화될 시간을 채우고 있는 모습은 성스럽기 그지없었습니다. 그리고 며칠 후, 갑자기 전에 들어보지 못한 아기새들의 요란스러운 ‘지지배배’ 소리에 가만히 귀를 기울여보니, 알들이 부화되어, 어미새와 아빠새가 먹이를 입에 물고는 어린 것들을 먹이기에 여념이 없었습니다. 그 어린 생명들은 평소에는 가만히 숨을 죽이고 있다가, 밖에서 날갯짓 소리와 어미새의 부르는 소리가 먼발치에서 들리기만 하면 깨어서 온 집안팎을 떠들썩하게 하였습니다.

목사관 주변에는 이름을 알 수 없는 많은 새들이 오가며 갖가지 높고 낮은 소리로 서로를 부르고 찾는 것을 보게 됩니다. 그러나 이 어린 생명들은 부모의 소리를 그 많은 소리들 중에서 분별하여, 부모가 둥지 밖에서 멀찌 감치 맴돌기만 해도 노란 주둥이를 벌리고 난리를 내었습니다.

저는 이 작은 생물들의 삶을 엿보면서, 하나님의 사랑의 손길을 생각하게 되었습니다. 그리고 감사치 않을 수 없었습니다. 이미 생명을 이 땅에 내어 보내실 때에는 먹고 잘 보금자리를 미리 마련케 하시고 그 생명이 자라나서 독립할 때까지 완벽하게 돌보시는 그 손길은 어디서 왔습니까? 우리를 이 땅에 내보내신 하나님께서 우리를 이렇게 완전하게 돌보심에도 불구하고, 우리는 늘 ‘무엇을 먹을까? 무엇을 입을까? 염려하는 어리석음 속에, 하루를 근심과 걱정에 눌려 살아감이 얼마나 한심스러운 일인가를 이 새들이 말해 주고 있었습니다.

하나님께서는 우주라는 둥지 위에 만물을 창조하시고, 인간들로부터 찬양을 받으시길 원하셨습니다. 우리가 할 수 있는 일은, 그분의 섭리를 극찬하고 즐거워하며, 그분의 말씀에 귀를 기울이는 것입니다.
마치 온갖 다른 새들의 소리에는 미동도 하지 않다가, 어미새의 소리 만을 가려내어 응답하는 어린 새들처럼 말입니다.

– 목사관서신 (7), 윤 완희

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“Delivering the Basket of Love”

A few nights ago, my husband and I sat anxiously in front of the television late into the night. We had been tuning in since the afternoon, nervously listening for news of tomorrow’s weather. Yet to our dismay, the forecast warned of a sudden flood alert. It was disheartening. After all the days of planning, praying, working, and waiting—now this?

Still hoping, we checked the late-night news one more time. But the reports confirmed it: heavy rain was expected, and in the northern areas, even 4 to 5 inches of snow. At last, we concluded that the trip would have to be postponed.

But as soon as we made that decision, the faces of those who were excited for their first journey with us came to mind, along with the image of the youth waiting for us. We could picture their disappointment.

“Lord, what will You do?”

“God, we believe in Your power—the power that parted the Red Sea and led the Israelites across the Jordan River. If it is Your will, please blow away these heavy clouds covering New York City and the state with a single breath, or hold them in place in the sky—just don’t let anything interfere with tomorrow’s mission.”

With that desperate prayer, we went to bed.

At 4 a.m. the next morning, expecting to see fierce wind and rain, I looked out the window. The sky was still brooding with thick clouds, but it was calm. Surprisingly, it wasn’t that cold. A certainty stirred in my heart: God is with us. With renewed hope, we quickly prepared to leave for the prison visit we had planned.

The church bus, carrying 12 church members who had come from various places despite their lack of sleep, began making its way north on New York’s highways under light drizzle.

We were on our way to deliver baskets of love to Korean-American youth incarcerated in prison—young people whose names and faces we didn’t even know. One person took their child out of school for the day to join. Another left their dry-cleaning business in someone else’s care. One woman, who usually rings the Salvation Army bell at Christmas, said she wanted to be the bell herself this year and came along.

One deaconess came even though her daughter, who had been ill, was visiting that day from far away. “Whether she’s with me or in God’s hands, she’s always cared for. I can see her when I return,” she said.

We were Catholic, Presbyterian, Salvation Army, United Methodist, Korean Methodist, Holiness, and Full Gospel members—different denominations, many strangers to one another. Yet as anonymous Christians, we came together, boldly breaking the chains of everyday obligations to serve.

After passing through several layers of clanging iron gates and muddy roads under construction, we finally reached the young men. There was no need to ask what crimes they had committed, no need to forgive or condemn, no reason to boast that we had come from far away.

We simply stood before them—moved to tears by the love of God the Father, who did not count our sins against us when we were still sinners, but crossed the river of prophecy and sent His only Son to us. During the short one-hour-and-fifteen-minute visit, we sang carols, shared God’s Word, and embraced with warm love and encouragement.

As the time for roll call came, the young men—holding the lovingly prepared baskets of love—hurried away at the guard’s command.

On the way home, gentle rain still fell under unexpectedly mild skies. But in our spirits, we could feel that a mysterious star—like the one that appeared before the shepherds on a midnight field 2,000 years ago—was guiding our steps.

– Letter from the Parsonage (6), WanHee Yoon

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“사랑의 바구니를 전하며”

며칠 전 늦은 밤에 저희 부부는 초조한 마음으로 텔레비전 앞에 앉아 있게 되었습니다. 낮부터 귀를 기울이며 내일의 날씨가 어떨지 온 통 신경을 쓰고 있었건만, 기상대의 소식은 때아닌 물난리 경보였습니다. 여간 난감한 것이 아니었습니다. 그 많은 날들을 계획하고 기도하고 수고하며 기다린 날인데… …. 행여나하는 마음에 마감 뉴스를 다시 확인한 결과, 엄청난 비와 함께 북쪽에는 4~5인치의 눈까지 내릴 것이라는 보고에, 계획을 연기해야겠다는 결론에 이르렀습니다.

그러나 막상 계획을 연기하자니, 한창 마음 부풀어 있는 초행길에 동행할 분들의 실망된 얼굴이 떠오르고, 우리를 기다릴 청소년들의 모습이 눈에 어리었습니다.

“하나님! 어찌하시겠습니까? 하나님! 저희는 홍해를 가르시고 요단 강을 건너게 하신 하나님의 능력을 믿습니다. 원하시면 밤새 이 뉴욕시내와 뉴욕 주를 덮고 있는 저 먹구름들을 당신의 입김으로 불어 다 른 곳으로 보내 주시든지, 아니면 그대로 하늘에 붙들고 계시든지 하여, 내일의 일에 차질이 없도록 도와주시옵소서” 간절히 기도하며 잠자리에 들었습니다.

다음날 새벽 4시, 한창 몰아치는 비바람 폭풍우를 기대하며 창문 밖을 내다보니, 하늘은 음침한 먹구름 속에서 아직 잔잔할 뿐이었습 니다. 예상 외로 과히 춥지 않았습니다. 마음속에 하나님이 함께하시는 구나! 하는 확신이 들면서 계획했던 감옥 방문을 서둘러 떠나게 되었습니다. 새벽잠을 설치고 각지에서 달려온 12명의 성도들을 실은 교회 버스는, 간간이 이슬비가 내리는 하이웨이를, 뉴욕 주의 북쪽을 향해 달리기 시작하였습니다.

이름도 모르고 얼굴도 모르는 감옥에 갇힌, 한인 청소년들을 찾아 사랑의 바구니를 전달하기 위해서였습니다. 어느 분은 아이들 학교도 하루 쉬게 하고 달려왔으며, 어느 분은 세탁소 일을 남에게 맡기고 달 려왔습니다. 어느 분은 구세군에서 종을 치면서 자선 냄비에 앞장서 서 봉사하시는 분이었는데, 자신이 스스로 성탄의 종소리가 되고자 달려왔다고 했습니다. 어느 권사님은 몸이 아픈 딸이 멀리서 오는 날 이건만, 딸이야 다녀와서 돌봐 주어도 하나님 품과 자신의 품에 있는 것이니 염려할 것이 있겠느냐며 달려오셨습니다. 천주교, 장로교, 구세군, 미 연합 감리교, 한인 감리교, 성결교인, 순복음교회 교인 등 교 단과 교파도 다르고, 초면의 얼굴들이지만, 일상에서 감히 벗어나올 수 없는 상황의 쇠사슬을 담대히 끊고, 익명의 그리스도인들은 모였습니다.

꽝꽝거리는 철조망을 몇 번 통과하고, 도로공사로 진흙밭이 되어 있는 길을 통과한 후, 청소년들과의 기쁜 만남을 갖게 되었습니다. 우리는 그들에게 죄명을 물어볼 필요도 없었습니다. 미워할 것도 용서 할 것도, 그들 앞에서 먼길을 왔다고 자랑할 것도 없었습니다. 다만 우리가 죄인 되었을 때에, 그 죄를 묻지 않으시고 예언의 강을 건너 당신의 외아들을 보내신 하나님 아버지의 사랑에 감격하여 눈시울을 적실 뿐이었습니다. 1시간 15분이라는 짧은 만남 속에 캐럴을 부르고, 하나님의 말씀으로 위로와 용기를 받으면서 뜨거운 사랑의 포옹을 하였습니다.

청년들은 점호할 시간이 되었다는 간수의 독촉을 받고, 손에는 익명의 그리스도인들이 정성껏 마련한 사랑의 바구니를 들고 총총히 사라졌습니다.

돌아오는 길에, 밖은 여전히 포근한 날씨에 이슬비가 촉촉히 내리고 있었고, 우리의 심령에는 2,000년 전 한밤중 들녘의 양치는 목자들 앞에 나타났던 이상한 별이 우리의 길을 인도하고 있음을 알 수 있었습니다.

– 목사관 서신 (6), 윤 완희

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“The Dream of a Prima Donna”

A church member who had recently joined stopped coming after just a few weeks, so I decided to pay her a short visit at the dry cleaners she runs. From the outside, the shop looked old and shabby. But as I opened the door and stepped in, I was surprised to hear a beautiful, sorrowful aria playing softly through a cassette tape.

The church member looked exhausted and weary, yet she greeted me with a bright smile. Inside the shop, a broken-down washing machine—clearly out of order for decades—stood in stark contrast to the freshly cleaned and neatly packaged clothes hanging, waiting for their owners.

As we chatted, exchanging updates about our lives, she began to speak of her only daughter. Her daughter had just started college and was a remarkably gifted singer with a promising future. From a young age, she had won competitions and stood out in various music events. Despite her youth, she displayed a natural vocal talent and took great care of her voice, constantly striving to develop it further.

But the mother was deeply troubled. She didn’t have the financial means to nurture her daughter’s talent fully, and with her aging body, she felt helpless and empty.

Having saved all her life, she believed dry cleaning was one of the few businesses accessible to immigrants, so before opening her shop, she had learned how to sew in someone else’s home. Eventually, she bought a store from a Jewish owner for a high price in a prime location. The business went okay for a few years, but as time passed, things declined.

On top of that, the machines began breaking down, and she couldn’t afford to replace them. In the end, she became what’s known as a “drop shop,” sending out clothes to be cleaned elsewhere. Her employees eventually left on their own. The idea that hard work would always pay off had become just a nostalgic tale. Life grew harder, and the light of hope for the future grew dimmer. Still, she found joy and meaning through her daughter.

She would listen to her daughter’s recorded voice dozens of times a day, dreaming of the day her child would become a prima donna at the Metropolitan Opera—world-renowned, radiant on stage. That dream was her only comfort and hope.

As I listened to her share pieces like Puccini’s songs and selections from Miss Saigon, I was deeply moved. The sound of her daughter’s voice was filled with pure, soaring dreams and a desperate longing for the future. In that cold, shabby shop—with peeling paint hanging from the ceiling, looking ready to fall, and a chill creeping between the cleaned clothes—her daughter’s voice trembled with the energy of a standing ovation ready to burst forth.

“Do you want your daughter to become a world-famous soprano?” I asked.
“Of course! But I’m not sure… Will it really work out?”
“Do you really want it?” I asked again.
“Yes… I really do,” she said with a deep sigh.

“There is a way. How much money do you think you can really make here at the dry cleaners? Supporting your daughter matters, but your resources are limited. In Proverbs 16:1–3, it says:
‘To humans belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the proper answer of the tongue.
All a person’s ways seem pure to them, but motives are weighed by the Lord.
Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.’

Start praying today! Invite God to be your partner. A mother’s tearful prayers can move the heart of God, and God can move the hearts of people to open doors for your daughter.”

Her eyes began to brighten.
“Do you really think inviting God as my partner will help?”
“Absolutely! Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen (Hebrews 11:1). No matter how hard or busy life gets, you must stay strengthened and comforted by God’s Word. That’s how you’ll maintain a healthy body and spirit, so that one day, when your daughter becomes a world-class soprano, you’ll still be around to watch her shine.

But if you remain in despair, worrying alone, it may not help her dream come true. God might want to use your daughter not only for the Metropolitan Opera but across generations to come.”

As I turned to leave, she grasped my hand tightly and smiled warmly. The burdens and worries that had pressed her down seemed to lift, as if wings were unfolding to set her free.

On the way home, I reflected on the nature of human dreams. Everyone, in their own way, dreams of being a prima donna. God wants to place each of us center stage in the theater of our lives.

Yet we often stray far from His will.
As created beings, we try to live by our own strength, ignoring our Creator.
But God, in His love, still longs to help us, to go before us, and to open paths for us.

Many believers before us lived as true prima donnas in life, not because they were admired by the world, but because they lived boldly with a faith that transcended time and circumstance. They may have looked like losers in their day, unnoticed by the world, but the persecution and suffering they endured made them radiant in eternity.

Dreams and fame pursued apart from the Lord may, in the end, be like the broken machines in an abandoned laundry—destined to rust and fade.
But those who walk hand in hand with the Creator may stumble, yet they will rise again. They may be unknown, but they will one day be known.

– Letter from the Parsonage (5), WanHee Yoon

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